Over Again (Lady Gaga x Taylor Kinney Fan Fic)

Chapter 8: Over Again

Chapter 8: Over Again

More months passed by, more therapy Stefani went through and I never left her side. I was always there to be her source of strength. I always try to make her laugh and forget that she's sick. I saw how much hair fall she had every after her chemotherapy session , how much weight she loss due to her loss of appetite and how much pale her skin has been compared before that she had this pinky rose face and smooth skin. But she never changed, she's still the woman that I loved and she was still the prettiest woman for me.

Every day that passed by, my heart breaks a bit knowing that my days with the most important person in my life is decreasing. I always visit the church praying that she would be cured or if I could just take her leukemia and she'll be healthy and that everyday I wish that a miracle would happen that all these were just a dream and she's just fine. But no, I had to be strong everyday for her until her six month came. We left the hospital and pulled her out from being admitted and she chose to rest at home. She was badly weak already, she can't stand up for so long anymore and she uses her wheelchair to travel around but I always assist her in everything she do. Every morning and afternoon we go to our favorite place, the sea, for some fresh air and sceneries and there, we reminisce our memories since we first told each other about our feelings. Every moment we had since her six month came was very memorable, I did my best to make each days of it unforgettable, I repeated my surprises to her. I kissed her again. I make her laugh and we bond together and I wear the perfume that she gave me on our thirteenth anniversary everyday.

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One peaceful morning, we went to the sea once again. I didn't prepare anything. I just wanted that time to be our time to talk and to say how much we love each other once again.

"You know what, I don't see the purpose of the sun because you're already enough to brighten up my world." I told her and she blushed.

"Taylor."

"Yes?" She extended her hands requesting for me to hold her.

"Stay beside me." She requested and I did. She grabbed my hand and placed it on her chest and she looked at me in the eye.

"Do you feel it?" She asked.

"Yes. It's beating. It's shouting my name. You're so in love with me." I joked. She giggle a bit.

"Taylor. Be serious. How do you feel?" I took a deep breathe.

"It's... Beating... The same way... My heart does." She nodded looking pleased. "And then?"

"And... It seems to be... Very happy."

"Yes." She quickly said. "It is very happy. You know why?"

"Why?"

"Because I'm with you." She said and smiled at me. She didn't let go of my hand on her chest. She turned her sight to the sea and sniffed the fresh air.

"Help me." She told me. "Help me stand up." I helped her to stand up and assisted her. She leaned her body against me and we stared at the sea together. She wrapped her hands around me and smiled at me.

"You're beautiful." I told her.

"Thank you for always making me feel beautiful." She replied. I kissed her forehead.

"Taylor, I feel bad that I could never feel how it feels to be Mrs. Kinney..."

I giggled and blushed.

"...but when we see each other again. In after life... Can you promise me that you'll still marry me?"

"Of course! There's nobody else I would marry than you, Stefani."

"And about our kids. I'm sorry that I failed you."

"No. That doesn't matter because it's you that matters to me. Just you. Okay?"

She smiled at me and hugged me tighter and pressed her lips against me then she rested her chin on my shoulder.

"When we see each other again... In eternity... Taylor. You will still be the man and the only man that I will love. And there, we won't die. We'll live forever." I broke down as she was speaking as she was embracing me.

"Yes, Stefani. We'll see each other there and get married and have kids and be happy forever. I promise. I love you so so much."

"Yes, Taylor. I love you too. So much. Thank you for showing me what love is in my short existence in this world, I was satisfied because of you." I hugged her tighter. "I love you so much Stef."

"I love you too Taylor. In eternity, we'll start all OVER AGAIN. Pinky promise." She whispered to my ear and I felt her tears on my shoulder. "I love you, Taylor. Please remember that." She said as her voice faded. I felt so emotional and her hands fell as her body dropped towards mine. I exhaled with torrid pain and fear. I checked her out. I gulped. "Stefani." I saw her eyes soaked in tears and was solemnly resting. My world crashed, my day turned dark and my heart stopped. I slowly bent down to the sand floor and made her lay down on my arms. I stared at her beautiful face and wiped the tears on her eyes and cheeks. I kissed her lips for one last time and that's when it finally sank in to me that she's gone. I cried so hard, this is the most painful thing that's ever happened to me. She was my everything, she was my life. She left me and now she's gone. I shed so much tears and I couldn't explain the pain, ache, sadness, misery and gloom inside me.

"God. Please give me one more chance with her. Please wake me up from this nightmare. Please, this is not real. I love her so much. Please." I shouted towards the sea.

"Stefani. Wake up. I thought I was ready but I wasn't. I am not strong enough without you. Please, let's start it all over again. Please. I love you so much. Don't leave me. We still have a lot of plans. Stefani." I cried but I had no choice but to accept that that very moment that I was afraid of happened already and there's no way to turn back time.