Heartstrings, Dreamsongs: A Book of Poetry

To K

Don't you know I did it for you?

I agreed because of you,

Changed myself to fit you,

Got on good terms with your parents for you.

I made an effort,

Said those things because of you,

And I didn't let you down.

I was selfless, giving,

Offered a hand when you weren't around,

To impress you, to see you,

To let you know how I cared,

And to show what a good person,

What a good influence I was,

To your family and other friends.

I fought long and hard,

Offered hugs and sympathy,

It was you who chose not to talk to me.

You chose to give it up.

Now I am broken, and lost,

I never gave up on you.

Now I think of you, and ache,

And see you, and ache,

And tears fill all my days.

I've cried for you,

And I would die for you.

I cared for you,

And I will listen to you.

Here I am, lost and alone,

Adrift in the sea, now,

I call it home.

And I want you,

Please remember my tears for you,

My heart filled for you,

And how when I reached out,

You didn't understand,

You ran and hid,

And I forgot about it

And loved you anyway.

Can't you see what you've done to me?

I hear your voice,

And I ache,

I see you,

And I ache,

I think of you,

And I ache.

I can't tell you to earn me back,

Because if you came running,

I'd hug you, love you, and wipe away your tears.