Then all what happened was just hell. It dragged me down to ground and i was just blindfolded in the wrong things. Kate was the first one to know that what all i was thinking was wrong and Joe had some personal problems to discus with Malani. When i came to know about this i was quite shocked and felt ashamed of my doings. I was in a deep thought that i turned all my things to hell because of my own fault, and now i was paying for it in count of every second and every minute. On the the way back to home i saw the bus of Malani, she was sitting beside the window an just looking up the fine white and cold clouds of autumn. I too loved seeing to clouds when i use to get disappointment and sad. And Malani was having both the feelings of disappointment because of me. I was in a deep feeling of sorrow that because of me a girl is not going to trust any other guy in her life but i was unaware that i was turning up like that. This was the bigining of my regret and my ego was crushed down like a broken glass, which on breaking creates a loud sound but destroyed completely. All day i just thought of her as her birthday was approaching which was on fourth February. Kate called me up and asked what have u planes about Malani's birthday, and i was like "No nothing i have planed, who is she. Now we r not in any relationship of friendship also." Kate shouted and said now u know all the truth then why r u sao angry now. I said what all i said i mean it a lot. Kate disconnected the cell and a message from her inboxed having "listen it was whole your mistake and now you have to make things correct". I said to my self that " hey Ash u have done this mess, clean it up and come back to your normal life, and for that you have to bring Malani back in your life." . The whole night i was just thinkg about her and that incident of her with Joe. The next morning it was third February, I went up to school heavy hearted. I saw Malani chatting with her friends and looked quite normal as she can hide her feelings from others very well. I got to her and said hey Malani listen please but she ignored i said that words again and she said i m busy. I got angry on her facial relations and left. I decided to do nothing on her birthday. Then Kate came to me and said what are u doing she is getting irritated and give her time to recover. I was angry so i not gave attention to her words. All that day was spoiled because of her single estronishing act. One the next day of her birthday we both were ignoring each other. Kate was observing us both doing so but kept quite because she don't want to mess up with us. The ring for lunch time rang and my heart eat went up to 120. We both looked towards each other very curiously and annoyingly. Kate an her friends went up to her and wished a very happy birthday. She was happy to see their presents. Kate gave her a watch and a mug in which their both pics were inscribed. She was very happy to see their all gift. She was waiting for my present but i went off class. I was standing on the terrace and Kate came and said Ash go and give her the gift u brought i said i am not going to give her as she didn't care about the gift. She left by saing that only you thinks and i replied it is only like that. I went to the class after wiping my tears. When i came back i saw everyone enjoying and cake ceremony was going on. I just passed by ignoring them all. Then by the time when all left the class i did my job, i kept my gift in her bag without telling her. All the things were happening so fast that i was unable to say Malani. By reaching home i sent her a message containing" Hey dear, wish u a very happy birthday. may you get every thing in your life what you want. I have kept your gift in your bag check it out..... love you.!!!!.. " I switched my cell after the message was delivered to her. ... And was thinking " what ever we are we are the one made by others, our personality is what we do but our attitude depends on how the another person is." ............................................ <see what the condition i was in and the thing are going to be more worse a while after.> ... :(
