*tylers pov*
I was sitting on the large king sized bed at the back of our tour bus. Our tour manager said we would have seperate beds, but he pretty much bought the wrong one so now we get to share this huge bed, which im personally not mad about. Cross-legged, i was anxiously biting away at my fingernails as i texted josh.
ty💕: josh where are you?
ty💕: josh
ty💕: josh you said you'de be here 10 minutes ago, where are you????
jishwa👻: hey, im omw.
a sense of relieve flowed over my body. i turned off my phone and set it aside. About 20 minutes later my eyes became locked to the television.
"Fatal car crash leaves man dead.. coming up next"
my heart was pounding and it felt as all the blood from my face had flushed.
"Yes just a few minutes ago a Semi crashed into the rear of this 2007 Honda.."
thats his car.
"Leaving 28 year old Joshua-"
i quickly turned the tv off. and threw the remote to the other side of the bus. tears over flowed my eyes and poured onto the bedsheets. our bed-sheets. I slowly rested my head into my hands and just sobbed. it was compleatly silent. too silent. until i was interupted by someone.
"Hey ty i got the stuff" a familuar voice said. my head flicked up and what i saw amazed my eyes. a tall boy, with cotton candy hair, and deep brown eyes that ive gotten lost in multiple times and that bright ass smile that could light up an entire room.
"Are you okay? You're crying." his smile faded into a frown. he quickly dropped the bag onto the table and ran up to me. he sat next to me and wrapped his warm arms around me.
"I-i-i thought yo-you" i said inbetween sobs.
"Shh its okay. im here. youre okay. everything is fine." he said. his voice was so reassuring. i just melted in his arms.
I cleaned myself up and walked back over to josh.
"So what's in the bag?" I asked as my eyes subtley scanned his body as he got up. Ive always had this massive crush on Josh ever since we met. He's just so nice and pretty and soft and ugh, i could go on. Ever since this whole tour bus situation, sharing a bed with him and seeing him in a towel all the time has been driving me crazy. But its not like he will feel the same, atleast from what i know hes straight. But ive also heard stories from his friends Brendon and Ashley.
"Well im glad you asked" He said with a smirk on his face that drove me insane. He held up the bag and my eyes grew wide.
"Weed!? Are you crazy we dont smoke we dont even own a barbeque lighter what the fuck are you thinking!?" I said. He put a sassy look on his face. He walked over to this hidden compartment i never knew about under our bed. He opened it up and there was condoms, lube, and of course, some lighters. the question is why would he have that under our bed? Its not like he has a girlfriend to fuck and if he did its not like he would bang her on OUR bed.. right?
"Wow.. um .. ok well.." i said awkwardly. His face was red, i think he forgot he put his condoms there too.
"You in?" He said as he grabbed the bag and walked over to the bed.
"Um.. ye-no.. uh.." i began to overthink things.
"Its yes or no tyler. If not i can go somewhere else so it doesnt stink up the bus?" Josh said with a serious face.
"Yknow what? Fuck it." I said as i scooted towards him.
"So how are we gonna.. like smoke it? We don't have any rolling papers?" I asked.
"You really think ide bring weed and nothing to smoke it with?" He reached into his pocket and pulled out a bright pink, sparkly pipe. I giggled as it matched him so well. He blushed "Shut up" He said through giggles and nudged me in the chest.
He quickly opened the bag, grabbed a nug and broke it up into smaller pieces. The dried leaf had a weird tint to it. Almost blue or purple. He took the little crumbs, then sprinkled and pressed it into the little pipe.
"You want first hit?" He said. I barely understood what that meant but i nodded and he handed the little pipe and lighter to me.
"Um.." i looked at him confused. He giggled and grabbed the lighter from me.
"Okay, put that to you mouth," he said, and so i did. He flicked the lighter on and hovered it above the pipe. "Now suck" i loved hearing him say that. I sucked and inhaled at the same time. its like i took a weird deep breath. I felt the smoke enter my mouth and travel into my lungs. He laughed as my eyes widened with each second.
I felt a tickle at the back of my throat so i quckly handed josh the pipe so i could cough.
"No!" He yelled.
"Dont cough, just hold it in for a few seconds. or like breath in like this" he breathed in with his teeth. I copied his actions and the tickle went away.
"Now exhale" he said. I exahaled and a huge cloud of white smoke left my mouth.
I was stunned by how pretty it looked. I looked over to josh. "Wow, he's even prettier" I said out loud.
"What?" He said with a huge grin on his face. "Oh.. nothin maan" i slurred.
I saw him quickly take a hit. i liked how he just let the smoke curl out of his mouth. he looked over to me and his eyes. how pretty his eyes looked. Everything about him was beautiful and i was just so fascinated with its beauty.
i leaned my back on a wall and just let the high run through my body. Josh sat next to me. I just sat there and stared at the beautiful boy infront of me. My eyes scanning every inch of him. i could hear my heart pounding as our faces some how became dangerously close. his eyes. i thought ive been lost in them once before but if that was lost then i clearly didnt know what lost meant. i started to see waves crashing and bright colors mixing. When my eyes graced his lips everything was a blur exept him. the colors mixed more into an entirely new color ive never seen before and i heard birds sing this melody that to this day i still search for. our eyes met. my hands were on his chest. his heart was racing. his hands were on my shoulders. weve never been this close before. his eyes question me. my eyes say yes. He slowly places his soft lips against mine and gave me soft kisses, over and over again. I was in shock but i soon came to my senses and kissed back. our lips were in sync and i never wanted it to end. but i needed to fucking breath. I pulled away. i could barely look at him as what i was about to say could be the best desicion of my entire life or it could be the worse. I bit the bullet and brought up the courage to bring my eyes to his. and when i looked, i made sure to look deep into his eyes.
"I love you josh." I said. I closed my eyes, waiting for a response. he didnt say anything. I opended my eyes. He wasnt there. I quickly got up and grabbed my phone to text josh. I turned it on only to see my phone lit up with notifications. They were going so quick i could barely read them. I went onto twitter to see what every one was freaking out about. The first headline read
"drummer Joshua Dun of the band twenty one pilots, Dead as result of a fatal car crash on 3rd st north"
