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amnesia pt. 3 - grayson

"Me." He whispered. My body froze, this was not happening. Not in a million years, did I think this would happen. I did the only thing I was able to, I hung up.

I didn't have any words to answer him with, I couldn't just say "Sorry, but I love your brother" without feeling terrible. I didn't even know if that was what I felt... No, of course that was how I felt. I love Gray, and I am going to talk to him tonight.

I knew I would feel like the worst person on Earth, but I needed to let Ethan know that my feelings for Gray were still there. I couldn't hurt him even more by not telling him the truth.

After my little moment, I called Ethan back but he didn't answer until the fifth time I called him.

"Hello?"

"Hey... Ethan, I wanted to talk about what you said earlier." I paused to take a breath.

"Oh. It was stupid. Just forget about it okay? I say dumb stuff sometimes, it just came out I-." He hesitated.

"I want to talk about it, seriously. In person."

It took him a couple of seconds before he replied. "Oh. Uh. Sure, when?"

I glanced at my phone for the time. 4:20 pm. "In an hour? Your place?"

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I walked all the way to his house, contemplating on whether this was a good idea or not. I could just ditch and say I had other plans, but I knew that if I didn't clear it out now I would never have the balls to do this again.

I rung the doorbell and Ethan opened it, closing it before I could go in.

"Hey, maybe we should go talk somewhere else." He started closing the door, when a girl's voice echoed throughout.

"Oh, is that the pizza?" She appeared before he finished closing the door.

I looked at Ethan, it was her. It was the same girl Grayson had been with. My heart sunk, I instantly realized that Ethan had been trying to protect me.

She stopped when she saw it was me and gave me a confused look.

"You know her?" She glanced at Ethan.

"Yeah, she's a... uh... friend." He hesitated before finishing his sentence. "Gray and I have known her since she moved here."

She nodded slowly and went back into the house, stopping for a second to look back at me.

"We can talk inside." I said, seeing her go up the stairs. " I'll be okay."

We sat in the kitchen as he tried changing the subject. "You know pizza sounds pretty good right now."

I shrugged, part of me was hoping that Grayson would walk in and say something, but he never showed.

"Gray!" We heard laughter coming from upstairs, both hers and Grayson's.

I'm not going to be okay. "Yeah, pizza sounds good. Let's do that." I said, thinking we were going to leave his house.

"Really? Great, I'll order it. Pineapple?" Ethan's face lit back up and he took out his phone.

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I waited in his room while the pizza arrived and looked through his collection of trophies that were laid out in a shelf above his desk. On the shelf were three photo booth picture strips, two of him and his family and the last one of the three of us, he had hidden it behind the other two.

I picked it up and smiled, I hadn't been in his room since after the accident.

"That's my favorite too." I jumped and looked up to see Ethan standing by the door.

"How long have you been there?" He shrugged and pointed to a drawer.

"I forgot my wallet in here, there's more in there. Just in case you were wondering where the rest were." He laughed before going to answer the door.

I opened the drawer and saw that he had around twelve other pictures of us. I didn't even remember taking most of them. Many of them included Grayson, only two were of the two of us.

I suddenly remembered the reason I had come to see him in the first place, I needed to let him know that my feelings for Gray weren't going to go away anytime soon.

He must have read my thoughts, "You don't have to beat yourself up over it, I'll be okay. I'll give you time."

I didn't want time. I wanted Grayson.

I hated myself for still having feelings for Grayson. I hated the fact that I was so easy to forget. I hated the fact that he got into that car with his stupid jock friends. I hated the fact that I couldn't say yes to Ethan, that I was hurting him because I was stupid enough to still love him even though he clearly liked someone else.

I picked up the rest of the pictures. "We should go there again, to the mountain." I held up a picture of Grayson and I. Ethan had taken it seconds before I slipped and broke my arm.

I laughed to myself, my arm won't be the thing breaking now. I put the pictures on the desk and grabbed a slice of pizza.

"Netflix?" I shrugged and he laughed.

"And chill." I pushed his arm and felt myself being pushed back.

I laughed on his floor and got up, pushing him harder this time.

He fell back, breaking his fall by holding on to me, our faces centimeters away. Maybe it was the heat of the moment or maybe it was the way hit his face, but when I felt him get closer, I didn't pull away.

"Woah, sorry man. I- Sorry." Grayson backed away from the door, laughing to himself while he left.

I don't know what hurt more, the fact that I had kissed Ethan, and Grayson seeing or the fact that he didn't feel anything when he saw it - he simply laughed.

It's been two years since I updated and it has over 85k reads!!! Like wtf! Omg, I feel so old rn, I was in high school when I started these and I'm now in college. Anyway, I seriously debated erasing this account when I logged in for the first time in years two days ago BUT you guys are still reading them and asked for a part three soo... Btw the plot didn't change, idk how but I was able to remember where I wanted it to go, so enjoy! ❤️