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There are too many things roaming over my mind I start to be overwhelmed by that. Some of them are hard to decipher even by my myself and it's even harder when it has to be turned into the words. Is that just my excuse or it does really happen? I will go by it does really happen. For some reason I can not control what I'm thinking about. 

Questions and stories filling up my mind in such unstoppable way. Which come first and which come last can not be told. Everything mixed up. Things after things, they keep me company, when on the outer I may look have no one to speak with, inside of my mind is crowded with things I will never get bored of.

The only thing I concern about is my relation with surrounding. If being asked whether I really want to be part of them sure I will shake my head. But we know it's not about that. Day by day, little by little I'm building a wall between me and whatever is outside. I don't let anything get inside except for everything I approve to get in. Maybe one day I'll learn how to open up my heart. Untill then, lets just see.