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Things that are hard to explain

Too many things roaming in my head at the same time that it's hard to explain. Well, I never am good at explaining things anyway. Basically I just run in circle. Tied to the past. Self loathing , all the negativity seem to be attached in me. I'm overly aware of myself. Being too much introspective that sometimes can just be another bad habit instead of good.

I have a hard time believing in people when they say I have (insert any good motivational words here) not because I simply have too low self confidence, though it might be true at some point, but more of that I exactly, entirely, and fully know who I really am.

I have deep understanding of myself, I know what I'm good at and bad at. I know myself inside out. Sometimes I admit I try to lie to myself at certain things to keep away all the bad influences that might destruct my fragile heart, but that never is able to hide the feeling that I feel entirely. I think that's what we call our conscience. You can never get rid of it no matter what.