Why did it have to be you? (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 13

*Trigger warning*

(Picture of Mikie)

Jordan's pov.

It was Monday, the first day at my new school. I slowly got out of bed and went to the bathroom, i sat on the bathroom floor because I really didn't want to go. Sunday was a complete blur, all I remember was never leaving my room. I looked down and noticed the cuts on my arms, I guess I forgot I did that. I just sigh and got up. I went to my room and got dressed. I made sure to grab my sweatshirt with the sleeves that covered my hands. I grabbed my things and left. I had to go to school early so I could find all my classes.

As soon as I walked in this guy with really long Black hair walked over to me walked over to me "You're the new kid right?"

"Yeah, do you need something?" I really wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone.

"I'm Mikie, Your new best friend and you can't get rid of me" He put his arm around my shoulder

"Could you get your hands off me" I tried to walk away but he wouldn't let me.

"He does that to everyone, get used to it" This girl walked over to us "Hi I'm Erin"

"Um.. hi i'm Jordan" I smiled a little

Mikie poked me in the cheek "You're too small and cute to be straight"

"Um...thanks I think" I finally was able to push his hand off my shoulder.

Erin punched him in the arm "You can't just call someone gay because they are cute" She looked at me "I'm sorry he has no filter"

"It's fine, I'm gay so it doesn't bother me" I shrugged

Mikie put his hand on my shoulder "So does that mean I have a chance?"

"In your dreams, I have a boyfriend." He sighed and leaned against a locker

Erin grabbed my class schedule from my hands "We have all the same classes" She grabbed my hand "Come on shorty" I followed her.

Class was really boring, I didn't pay attention to anything. It was now time for lunch and I followed Erin to the lunchroom where Mikie was waiting for us. I just wanted to go home and never come back. I ignored Erin and Mikie all lunch hour because I was texting Luca. He went back to sitting with his football friends and Anna sat with him. He kept complaining because she was hitting on everyone.

Lunch was finally over and we went back to class, I still didn't pay attention. Once school was over I went straight home and locked myself in my room. I tried to call Luca but he wasn't answering, He was probably at practice. I missed him so much. I rather still be living with my dad then not being able to see him everyday. I felt so alone without him, I felt dead. I didn't feel anything anymore, love, hate, pain, sadness, happiness. Nothing, I felt nothing. Who wants to live like this, not me. I grabbed my phone went to the bathroom and shut and locked the door.

I texted Luca one simple message "I'm sorry" I put my phone on the floor and grabbed a razor from under the sink, I sat on the floor and began destroying the once clear skin on my arm. Blood dripped onto the floor and I started to get light headed, I dropped the razor and fell to the floor. The last thing i heard was my mother calling my name and trying to open the door. Suddenly surrounded by darkness, I...I felt at home.