Why did it have to be you? (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 16

Jordan's pov.

Luca wanted to drive me home and I let him. He told me that school is miserable without me and said how much he missed me but I started to zone him out, I got lost in my thoughts. I finally got pulled out of my own mind when I realized I was already home.

Luca was staring at me "Is everything okay? I can stay for a while if you need me"

"Everything is fine" I got out of the car and walked to the front door. I hate lying to him but I didn't want him caught up in my problems.

"No your not" I turned to see he was behind me

"I am, go home Luca" I opened the door and walked in.

"I'm not going home, I'm staying with you for a little bit" he walked in. I just shrugged and went to my room and he followed me. I sat down on the floor and looked at him, he sat next to me and grabbed my hand.

"I don't care if we sit here in silence. I could tell you were thinking of doing it again Jordan, your transparent when it comes to me. I see your eyes cry for help when your mouth says you're fine, I can tell the difference between your happy smile and your help me smile." He put his arm over my shoulder "Jordan I'm here for you, please just talk to me. Please if anything tell me why you did it"

"Why I did it? I did it because i'm empty inside, I feel nothing. I didn't feel pain when I was bleeding out on the floor. I didn't feel sad for the people I hurt when I did, I said I was but I wasn't" I got up and looked at him "I feel nothing Luca" He got up and went to hug me but I pushed him away, he looked confused "I feel nothing, I feel nothing towards you Luca. Don't you get it! I'm broken stop trying to put me back together! Let me fall the the ground! JUST LET ME DIE ALREADY!" I didn't mean the yell but I couldn't help it. He looked at me, his face was blank. I pointed to the door "Get out" I walked back to my bed and sat down.

"No" He walked over to me. "Jordan, you don't want me to leave I can tell. Yell at me all you want, tell me you hate me. If it makes you feel better than go for it" He held out his arm "Scream away."

I got up and hugged him "I'm sorry Luca, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to snap at you. You're so important to me, you show how much you care. Luca I....I Love you" I hid my face in his chest to hide my blushing cheeks.

He rubbed the back of my head " I love you too cutie" He kissed my head and smiled.

"Listen just a few more weeks and then we can graduate and i'll spend every minute by your side, but till then stay strong baby." He kissed my cheek "Promise to keep fighting"

"I promise" I smiled and hugged him one last time before he left.

After he left and lied down, I wasn't going to break my promise. My eyes became heavy and I fell asleep thinking of Luca.