Louis's POV
I couldn't stop looking at Harry. He didn't even find the time to glance in my direction and a mere day ago he had my dick in his mouth. I didn't know what that day meant or what we even were or if I even wanted there to be an us. All I knew was there was a sub in US History and he was doing nothing but staring at the wall with an occasional text to god knows who in between.
"So, pretty cool we have a s-sub huh?" I attempted at some form of small talk but it all felt wrong coming out of my mouth. He let out the smallest shrug of the shoulders and kept his head forward. I looked like a complete fucking idiot chasing after a boy who clearly didn't give enough shits to even give a glance to me.
"Your hair looks nice." I tried again, trying to make it sound like I didn't care what he had to say. We both knew I did. I was obsessed with a boy who sold himself to randoms. He nodded still averting his eyes.
It didn't matter what I did. Nothing mattered. Harry would never be interested in me like I was in him. His phone buzzed and he quickly tapped answer and held it to his ear. The students buzz was so filling there was no way anyone would notice the conversation.
"I can't talk right now, Niall." His voice sounded cold, and short. His nails dug into the desk and he finally met my stare, rolling his eyes. "It's none of your business. You made that clear. I've moved on."
Curiosity filled every part of my being and I couldn't help but wonder who he was talking to. It was the first time I had really seen his face contort in anything. He was always blank. Unreadable. It was almost like he had no feelings at all, but I knew when he let my name slip from my lips that he had to feel something. Maybe not everything,like me, but something.
"I'm in the middle of class. I have shit to do and places to be and Luke won't like it if I talk to you. You want to help me? You shouldn't have called if you know what's good for you."
It seemed as though that's all Harry knew about himself, that he was bad. I heard Harry hang up. I couldn't help but ask, "Who's that? Who's Luke?" I knew I sounded nosy but I was. I wanted to know. I needed to have some kind of closure that I wasn't a complete fool.
"It was my ex-boyfriend Niall. Don't push it." His voice was stern but I could feel a sense of empathy going towards me. I knew I needed to stop trying to make small talk just to salvage a little bit of my pride. Harry had taken advantage of me and I should've listened when he said he was going to.
I was stupid to ever think I would be able to change his mind. He was a prostitute and it was his job to make me feel like I meant something even though it was just another blowjob to him.
"I'm sorry if I hurt you, Loverboy." His voice was so quiet I almost didn't hear him say it. I swallowed and stared at my hands. I didn't know what I was supposed to say. That it was okay? It wasn't.
He left me naked and alone on his bed looking like an idiot. To expose myself, and then be treated like a fly on the wall was something I was never prepared for. Not even if Harry was a prostitute. Not even if Zayn told me so.
"I don't k-know what to say." I stuttered profusely. I'm sure by now his voice made my cheeks red. His large hand reached up and tucked a piece of hair behind my ear.
"You don't have to say anything. I've done nothing but treat you like shit and yet you still try for me, why? What do you see in me? I just don't understand why you would want to spend anymore time than you have to with me." Harry spoke and for the first time I saw a glimpse of fear looming in his face.
"Don't you get it? You mean more to me than a blowjob. You make me want to know you. You hold so much pain and I want to help. I want to kiss your broken parts. I look like an idiot, chasing after you. But I do it because I know you feel it too. I know yesterday meant something at that's why you ran. "
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Maybe He Gives Me More
Фанфикtw: major explicit content including prostitution, mentions of gang violence, extreme graphic sexual content "If you know what's good for you Loverboy, you'll stay the fuck away from me."