"I said go away!"
Jeongguk shouted at me. Something different? No. He always does that, to me.
"But i want to comfort you." I said like a whisper.
All I wanted is to comfort him but he always refused. Every time I'll make my way to him, he always walk backwards and don't even care what would I feel.
Every time I touched his shoulder trying to make him feel better, he always shoved my hand like I am just nothing.
"You don't need too. I don't need anything from you nor any things connected to you.." He said and walked away from me.
He left me, again. Nothings different. I'm being immune to what he was doing. Being left by him, felt like I was just a piece of paper that crumpled when he finally use, write anything he wanted then throw it at the trash can.
I'm crying, again. In the middle of the night I am crying again. What did I do to make him feel that I am worthless? I'm his girlfriend but felt like I wasn't.
"For you I am not gonna give up for you, I will be brave. For you, I will do the things i know will make you happy. But remember this jeongguk i will kept myself to even you don't want to." I said while crying.
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