Every student in our classroom started to whispered and talks like they've never see him doing that everyday. He just slammed the door . I just sighed.
"Okay class, continue what you're doing."
As I continue writing, Proffesor went and talk to him. I didn't heard it but I can see that proffesor is bored talking to him.
When he finally sat right beside my chair, I asked him.
"Why are you late again?"
"Its none of your business." He placed down his head and prepared for a sleep.
I looked down on my notebook and bite my lips. I know that he will say it, he always late. Though he still went here to school like nothing.
I looked at our proffesor writing with his thin chalk.
"Aren't you started wring? Proffesor nam will see you sleeping again on his class... Remember the other day? He gave you a red form, you will be kick out if its become 5."
"I don't care." He simply said. I sighed.
"Jeongguk."
"Don't call me by my real name."
"But i want it."
No, i love it. I love calling him by his real name. Even he always says I shouldn't. He said there's no such thing calling him like that, he felt irritated. We've been in relationship in 2 years. But still I can't feel any love from him, even just for a second i couldn't feel it. Its, empty.
"Psst! Yeri-ah!"
I looked at who called me. Its Taeyong.
He mouthed "Are you okay?"
I smiled and thumbs up "Nae!"
I glance at Jeongguk whose still sleeping. It feels refreshing especially the place where sitting was at the side, beside a big window that can sees our the green field and our basketball court that had a plants, flowers, trees on the side.
"Yeri-ah, aren't you gonna eat?" Seulgi unnie said while I'm here still seating.
"Nah... Thank you unnie. But iI don't feel like eating right now, maybe later I guess. You should go now with Irene unnie, she would be happy." I said with a smiled.
She blinked and adjusting her shoulder bag.
"She will be felt more happy if you're with us."
She didn't stop convincing me until Jimin called her.
She sighed. "Okay, I see. I'm on my way now just wait for me there okay?" She smiled and end the call.
"Are you sure yeri? You know, you don't have someone else with you here. Is it okay with you?"
"Of course unnie! Don't worry about me."
I'm okay.
"Okay, see you after class i guess? Annyeong!"
I waved my hands to her "Annyeong unnie!"
From the moment ddeulgi unnie leave, I started to put my earphones in my ears and a play a random music at my playlist.
"And can you smile niga wanhajana niga barajana hmmmmmmmm" I hummed while looking at the window.
Funny to say but every break time i usually don't go out on the cafeteria with my friends nowadays. I always here making myself time alone. I don't know but every time I am here looking at the sky, i felt like not living on a real world anymore.
All worries, pain, disappointment, confusion and all, seems faded.
I closed my eyes.
"Don't stress yourself and stay calm that's all you should do." I mumbled.
Minutes past until I hear someone steps near on what I was seating. So I opened my eyes.
"I could accompany you."
"Ahmm... Thanks, but I wantㅡ"
Before I complete my sentence, he get a chair and placed in front of me.
"What do you want?" I asked.
"I said i could accompany you."
"You don't need to. Just eat at the cafeteria with your friends than being with me."
I always tell him this kind of words so that he will know the real truth when he wants to be with me.
"What are you talking about? You're not just nothing. Come on, go with me at the cafeteria. Your friends want to have a bonding with you." I looked at him.
"Really?" He nodded.
"How do you say so?" I raised my eyebrow.
Seulgi unnie was with her boyfriend which is jimin right? Oh... Maybe Irene unnie he was talking about.
"I asked them." He smiled widely
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