Painting my Life:a collection of poems

Lies You Fed Me

This is just a poem that I spilled out one day. It's weird because I always thought that I was a happy person. It doesn't completely rhyme, but just deal with it.

WARNING!
Might be a little too mature or too dark for some people. Read at your own risk!

I had no chance to fix my mistake,
now I have to face the consequence.
Little by little the guilt gnaws at me,
If I die so be it.
When I step a little closer to the dangerous path,
I find myself possessed in your clever wrath.
I never imagined my life to be like this,
I wish I could once again have the innocent childhood I miss.

Go to take me into the air Watch my blood spill everywhere,
Watch the confidence in me drip,
Watch me cry and quiver my lip.
See the kindness in my heart,
See the contribution of my part,
Make the music roar and terrify the life out of me,
But you can't make me forget the lies that you let slip into the sensitive heart of mine,
Eat my soul but you can't make me forget
the lies you fed me.

I cannot gain the trust that you stole,
In my heart you left me with a big hole,
And as far as you gave me still ache remarkably.
I wish I could replay the past,
But if I could I know I wouldn't last,
The game where I was included,
Where I just cried and hid.

I was nothing more than just chess piece,
Moving to beat your opponent.
You used me to your advantage,
Back when I was näive.
I tried to run away,
But in front of me you always lay.
Chasing me into the enemy,
The devil himself controlled me.

All that I could find in my mind,
Were horrifying nightmares,
All the memeories that you tore apart,
You cared about nothing because you have no heart.

Lie to my face or behind my back,
Stab me in the heart,
But you can't make me forget the lies that you let slip into the sensitive heart of mine,
Eat my soul but you can't make me forget
the lies you fed me.