Howling At The Moon

Howling At The Moon chapter 4

                "Please No please don't take my brother away" wiping away all of my tears. " No James please don't leave me here alone, I need you, I love you. James please don't be dead, please i need you."                                                                                                                                                                                                 I jumped up out of my sleep, sweat flying down my face racing with my tears. I looked over and saw James sleeping beside me, I hugged him as tight as i could and realized it was all just a dream. Even though it was a dream i couldn't help but cry some more holding James. I always had dreams like these but only about the night of my mothers death, but this time it was about the little boy beside me, the one i loved more then anything.

 I got up out of bed trying not to wake up James and went into the bathroom to splash water on my face. I looked up in the mirror and looked at my face, brushed my fingers through my soft brown hair. I looked deep into my Blue eyes and i tried to smile at my reflection but looking at my face i couldn't get over the scare above my eyebrow. I hated it and hated the way i got it. I was playing in the pack and got into a fight with Jack and because he is one of the alphas he made me bow to him. We were young and so i felt it wasn't fair i had to bow to him especially when he kept nipping at my feet. I told him no and he attacked me and he bit my head and busted my eye brow open, he said he was sorry when i saw him two months later, when got my stitches off I got a scare that even to this day hurts when i get angry.

I left the bathroom and went into the kitchen, I didn't really eat much but made a lot of food so when James would wake up it would already be ready for him to eat. I always step outside in the morning with a cup of tea, and i always secretly bring a few sausages every morning to feed this stray  puppy that lives under my porch. Nobody knows about it but me and James, we decided to call her Lola. She is a Husky puppy that is black and white, she has brown eyes and for some reason i feel like i can talk to her, I told her about my mother and my life. I feel crazy sometimes but i feel like she actually listens. I wish i could bring her inside especially during this weather because its so cold but my dad probably would shoot her before he ever even let her in the door way.

"Gwen" I turned and saw James come out the door, "hi Lola" James said excitedly running down to give her a hug. James love having her around and sometimes i sneak her in my room through the bathroom Window so James could play with her and not get in trouble. "I think she missed you James" I said smiling at his cute little smile holding Lola in his hands "I think she did to" he said and we both laughed. "We can never let any body know about Lola you know that right James?" i asked him "yeah i know Ge Ge" he said sadly. He got up handing me the small little dog and went inside letting the screen door slam behind him.

I walked around the side of the house and opened the window to the bath room and slid Lola in and climbed in the window to. I opened the door to the bathroom and let Lola run on to the bed to greet James. I knew i could get in trouble but i figured i was more afraid to let my brother be sad then to get hit.

"Ge Ge what are we going to do today" James asked "I don't know what do you want to do" I asked knowing we both never really did anything on Sundays. James shrugged his shoulders, "I have and idea" i told him smiling knowing my idea would make him happy. "What is it, what is it" he said jumping up and down and Lola barking happily along with his enthusiasm, "we can go down to the river just put some shorts on and a shirt ill put my shorts on ./and my shirt and we can bring Lola. I think i have a rope around here." i figured we would go down to the lake because James loved it down there and Lola needed a bath. "Yeah i want to go there. But i don't want to use a rope on her, do you have money." he asked curiously "yeah not a lot but some" i told him honestly "can we buy her a collar and leash they are each only  like three dollars and we can give her a name tag" James always came up with these ideas that always seemed to crazy to be possible but this idea was actually great. "Yes, perfect this is why i love having you around my little genius" I kissed him on his for head and got up to leave the room but gestured for James to stay where he was. I walked into the other bathroom next to my fathers room and stepped along the floor looking for a loose piece. I found it and it popped a chip in the ceiling, i stood on the bathtub and pulled out a long piece of wood and grabbed the jewelry box. It was my moms and i had all her pictures inside it, she always saved up a lot of money and would put it inside the tiny pink and green box. I opened the box up and saw all the money she had put inside, I counted fifty and put it in my pocket. I put everything back into place and hopped down and ran in my room where James was already ready to go and had Lola in his arms. "Well lets go" i said smiling at his adorable face.

We walked to a near buy pet supply and bought a pink collar, pink leash and got a silver tag. It was all about thirty dollars and i still had enough to buy James a pair of new shoes. We walked all around the store with the leash in our hands and Lola pouncing around at the end of it looking around the tiny store.

We finally left the store and went walking to the river, and as we walked the path James and i saw the river ahead, we ran and jumped in . We stayed in there for what felt like hours, but our fun was ruined when we heard a noise in the distant woods. I jumped out and James and Lola followed behind me, me and James got mostly dried off and put our dry clothes on. "Did you hear that" James asked me "yeah" i responded "what was it" he asked "i don't know" i said starting to walk to the sound. I looked through the trees and saw something black and grey running back and fourth. "James, take Lola and bring her home" i said sternly "no I'm staying here with you" he said back letting a stubbornness leak out of his voice like a burted pipe. "Turn" I said and we both quickly turned, I saw James pick Lola up gently with his mouth and hide in bushes keeping her close to him as if it were his baby and he would do anything to protect her, he acted like i do with him. 

I saw Rina and Ashley come out, Jack following behind them head held high. "What are you doing here" I asked, "why are you" Jack responded. "I am leaving now" i explained keeping m,y eyes on Ashley's. Ashley had a thing about her that made you wonder if she was out get you or to become a friend. I could feel that she was trying to learn me, I felt vulnerable like she could read me like a book. I started to back away but " i need to tell you something very important Gwen" Rina announced. "What" i said wondering curiously if i really wanted to know, "I can feel your future and you are going to carry someones baby" . "Yeah right, who" i replied, "Andrew" she said "but Andrew isn't in our pack" i told her confused. "He just entered and he said he entered to have you", "you don't understand my father said" i tried to tell her but Jack interrupted. "Your father wants you with the leaders son and because we are all taken he is giving you to the other packs leader. We agreed but only if he came to our pack, because you have a sibling in ours." "I need to go" I rushed to James and grabbed Lola and ran as fast as i could back home.

"What was that about" James asked me as we lied on the bed watching Lola sleep, "dad really wants me to have a mate, and i am going to have to be with someone i don't want to be with." I knew James knew what the conversation was about but we didn't have anything better to talk about so we talked about everything that had happened that day. From having fun going out, to how we both felt lost in this world and we had no say, we both agreed we were happy to have one another on our sides because we would be lost without each other.

Hours passed and it was already ten o clock pm, " i love you James" i told him a whisper "taller then mountains" he asked "deeper then sees" I told him "to heaven and back" he replied "forever and for always" i told him "i love you Gwen", "i love you James"

We turned out the lights and i held James and Lola as they fell asleep. But i stayed awake, thinking about what Rina said, was i really going to have Andrew's baby. Why did Andrew want me, and what will happen if i do have a baby. What will happen to me and James, will we be separated.

I love you James, taller then mountains, deeper then seas, to heaven and back, forever and for always, i love you James.