Infinite Dimensions -The Discovery

CHAPTER 11: Crystal clear

The guards rushed to General Gammon’s body.

One of the guards, as if it was rehearsed, released me after he saw me stunned and frozen outside the door. Some of them knew everything that had happened especially what the general spilled. They were quite sympathetic as I took a last glimpse of their faces as they cover up the body; probably feeling sorry for the general and scared for my situation.

I couldn’t make up my mind of what to feel. Maybe I feel rage… or pain… but absolutely not grief. Not anymore. I have answers… I just don’t know what to do with it.

I sighed.

I heard the grumble of the thunder and the roll of pebbles beneath my feet as I drag myself in confusion and exhaustion. I started to feel a change within myself. I have proven to be much stronger than what I anticipated. I feel stiff; heavy and dark. I feel like my chest is bearing huge rocks of outrageous weight; like everything’s pulling me down.

I placed my hand in my pocket and felt the smooth folded parchment that laid more answers that I couldn't possibly bear at the moment.

I sense rain... the sky thundered and huge droplets of water poured upon me. I ran back to my house and I wasn't surprised to see Rey asleep on the bench at the front porch.

I smiled.

I gently caressed his face and kissed his forehead, waking him up.

“Baby, what happened?? Are you ok?” he asked looking worried and alarmed.

“I’m ok. A bit satisfied, I think?”, then I pulled him upward as I grabbed his hand. “Oh, and General Gammon killed himself. Nothing to worry about.” I said nonchalantly and I hugged his waist and dug my face in his shirt; longing for his warmth.

“WHAT??! What else happened in there??” he asked, more alarmed as he tried to look at my face.

I don’t want to let go of him. At the moment, I just want to hug him tight.

“Shhh. Don’t worry. Everything’s going to be fine. I got what I needed”, I said in a gentle tone, looking up at him while his face showed confusion, shock and fright.

He doesn’t need to know what happened. I don’t want him to get into this mess. I will finish this mission by myself; with no more loved ones getting in between the war between me and my parallel. The least he knows, the safer he will be. I need to be strong; I need to protect the guy I love.

I placed my arms around his neck and lastly kissed his check with tears pouring down my eyes. “Thank you for everything…” I whispered in his ear. “Go home, get some rest. I’m going to be fine.” I smiled and rubbed his left cheek. “I love you.”

He was hesitant at first but I pleaded and pleaded; avoiding telling him the reason why and at last he gave in. He made me promise to answer his calls as soon as possible for a sense of security. I nodded gently as I kiss him one last time and thanking him for everything that he has done. I started to cry.

He was confused but he didn’t badger anymore. I appreciate that he’s so understanding and full of trust. God… I love this guy.

I walked slowly into the house as I wipe off my tears. The reason why I can’t be too near to him now is that I can’t afford to lose anyone dear to me anymore. My parallel isn’t gonna stop… so to prepare myself for her next attack, I need to give my goodbye’s beforehand. I needed to be distant to him. I know he will do anything to help but I won’t risk his life! Rey is everything I have left! I will never forgive myself if he was caught in the middle of this fight and suffered the fate like that of what my family has gone through. As much as I long for him, I didn’t have any choice. The only way I can repay everything he had done for me is to at least I keep him safe.