White Roses
Nhica Moico
(15/08/2008)
Part Four
“We’re having a divorce” Shane’s Auntie Amelia said, pacing around the room. It hadn’t occurred to Shane that her own Auntie and Uncle would have a divorce, not when she had always thought of their marriage as a happy one.
She watched as her Auntie paced around the room, it begins to annoy Shane. She didn't like feeling like this, she didn't want to feel sad and down for her Auntie and Uncle. Not when she was finally getting over Red. Well bit by bit anyway. "Why now? You've been together so long Auntie! Jems and Hannah will be shattered if they hear about this"
"I know, and we don't know how were going to solve this. We just keep on fighting Shane. I don't know what to do anymore" Shane watched Amelia slumped down on the white couch. Staring at it now, it reminded her of Red and Holly.
She knew it as much as anyone else that she was being such a stupid girl when she couldn't get seem to get over of remembering Red. He was married for over a year now and it really hadn't occured to her that he was married to her own sweet friend Holly whom was impregnated by Red.
The thought of the baby growing inside Holly's belly sent a churring feeling in her stomach. She wasn't stupid, she knew that sooner or later they would soon start a family. And that sooner nor later was here already. Shane couldn't believe the fact that she was going to be one of the baby's Godmother, Red and Holly's baby.
"Shane, did you hear me love?" Her auntie Amelia waved her hand in front of Shane. Her eyes darted to her Auntie's gaze whom was full of stressed and anxiety when it faded and was replaced by a soft gaze that had the knowing glance her auntie always uses whenever she had guessed something.
"It's Red isn't it?" Shane shook her head, tears suddenly welled in her eyes. She forced for it to go back but it didn't seem to listen to her. Instead one tear rolled down her cheek, avoiding Amelia's eyes. She didn't want sympathy from anyone, but it didn't seem like it to other people.
"It's okay, sweetheart. I understand what you're going through, because I've been there once. I've been where you are now, I understand what it felt like wanting someone you can't never have because they were already taken" Amelia said reassuringly.
She shouldn't be crying, she should not be crying over single things like it was such big deals. Shane didn't want to look at things that would remind her of Red, not when her heart was still broken from heartache and pain.
"Shh, it's okay darling. It's okay," her Auntie Amelia continued to speak soothingly, running her hands up Shane's back. The contact sent a warm feeling inside her, calming her a little.
With all the tears dried, and when she could no longer produce any, Shane focused her attention on Amelia, remembering of what she had said. "What do you mean you've been in my position? How do you truly understand Auntie Amelia?" she whispered, breaking eye contact.
Amelia smiled sadly, "I was on your age. I can still remember it clearly. I was just like you, Shane. I got my heart broken by the guy whom I can't ever have. He was my best friend too, but one day, I realized that I loved him. Not the kind of love with your best friend but more deeper than that. I told him that I love him, but sadly, he just didn't have the same feeling towards me. It hurts at first, especially, when I found out that months later he was getting married. He invited me and his wonderful wife whom I had always liked, and while I was on the ceremony, I was thinking 'I wish I was the one who was holding on tight to his arm, I wish that was me on the white dress instead of her' those was the thoughts that had been running in my head. I even had the thought of saying 'stop the wedding' but I didn't because I know my best friend would hate me for that. So I didn't, but I managed to get up and live my life again. It wasn't easy but I got through, and then I met your Uncle" she finished the last sentence in a whisper, making Shane wonder if her Auntie Amelia regrets marrying his Uncle Ben.
"Do you regret marrying him, Auntie Amelia?" Shane asked, lifting her head back up to look at her Auntie.
"No, Shane. I never did, but you know what? I still love your Uncle Ben, he was the one who helped me heal while I had my broken heart. I know it hadn't been easy on him as well, and thinking of the divorce now, it only just made me think......" Amelia's voice droned out, but Shane was no longer listening.
Amelia was just like her. Shane wondered if broken heart runs in their family. Surely, it doesn't because her parents marriage was full of faith and they swore to never leave each other till death do them apart. It was sweet as she thought about it now, and that made Shane wonder, would she ever have that kind of life her parents had? Or would she live like a loner forever by herself.
But then there was sweet Finnick whom she remembered, Shane felt happy whenever she was with him but it he had never went that deep in her heart. She was worried that she might have to break his heart one day. And it was the day Shane was not looking forward to.
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White Roses
أدب المراهقينMaybe if Shane had told him, maybe if she did she would have been the girl in a white dress with white roses in her hands. Not her friend Holly, who had looked stunning in her dress. Maybe if Shane confessed, she would had been the girl in front of...
