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Jacob

    He gently laid me on the bed, my heart racing. my mind had no clue what was happening my my body did. His touch was soft as ever, and if I did this with anyone it would be with him always. My manhood beginning to become excited, but my stomach was telling me otherwise.

He kissed my neck softly, but my face scrunched up in displeasure. ". . . chres, chres please." he continued to kiss my neck until I made him stop. I pushed him off of me. "Chres just stop!" his face looked shocked as I raised my voice, and cradled my knees. "Whats wrong? I thought you wanted this. . .  I thought you wanted us to be-"

"Chresanto! I know this! I just can't." I sighed, "Jacob! how long are you going to make me wait! Ive been waiting on you, but I cant take it anymore!" His more dominate voice struck fear into my heart . . .  and sadness.

"What do you mean you cant take it anymore!?" I shouted back, my eyes stinging with warm tears. "Jacob . . ." he started.

"I mean I have- I mean nothing." he climbed off the bed , and walked into the bathroom slamming the door leaving me there to look like a fool. He has been waiting paitently, and I have been holding back. what is wrong with me?

As I heard the bathroom door open, I quickly dug into my dresser grabbing my closest friend, my razor blade. I rushed downstairs into the hallways bathroom. I slammed the door, and sat beside the tub raised my sleeve. 

The feeling of the cold metal against my warm skin, was on of the best feeling right now. 

As I began to make my next mark, the door was being pounded on by my jerk of a boyfriend Chresanto. He knew what I was doing.

"Jacob open the fucking door!"  he yelled. "I have your key, theres nothing in there for you Jacob!"

. . . Oh yeah, I forgot my over the counter medication was sure to take me out quick, I know I've tried. "Chres, just leave me alone! its obvious you werent meant to be like me!" I cried. "You need to find a girl that will love you, not a suicidal boy!" I was talking out my ass, if he left me I was going to off myself, he is the only person that ever loved me. "Jacob! just open the door! I chose to be the way I am! not because of you."

I heard his voice soften, "Could you go back to the room? I coming out." I wiped my eyes. Later thing became silent. Peeping out the door, I washed my arm of the drying blood, and walked to my bedroom. He sat on the edge of the bed, with an drowsy expression. 

"Jacob dont ever do that again." 

He said that last time. "Sure.."

I said that last time.

He weakly smiled, and stood. Hugging me tightly before patting my head. "I lov-"I rubbed his back hushing him. We agreed not to use that word yet. "Right, I forgot. I really like you, and would be hurt if you were taken from me right now Jacob. He kissed my forehead. 

Minutes later he left because of school the next day. I went to sleep.

Deep down I knew he was feeling another way.. and not just for me.

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A WHOLE DIFFERENT PLOT THIS TIME! MY WRITING SKILLS ARE CHANGING! I hope lmao

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