All I Want Is You *Magcon Boys*

Chapter 11

This is it I'm about to tell Cameron, a guy I met a few days ago, something very personal about me. Something that broke me to peices.

"Okay, I'm sorry if I cry while telling you the story. Most likely I will this is something I don't tell most people mostly because I don't want to cry in front of them. Crying makes me feel very weak, I hate it. Feel speacial." I slightly laugh trying to lighten up the mood.

"Don't apologize for something you can't control and that is normal to human nature. Don't worry about something silly like that." he said taking my hands and holding them in his rubbing his finger over them. This only made me feel more comfortable to open up to him. I also felt a weird warm, fuzzy feeling inside.

"Okay so about a year ago, probably more, I was dating this guy, we were best friends. My parents loved him, he was my childhood sweetheart. He wasn't my first boyfriend but the only one that really lasted and that made me super happy. In my head we were relationship goals, I thought I was the only girl he had eyes for. I was for a while, but that soon ended. Everything began once I started using vine more often and started getting noticed. He got jealous of all the comments about how I'm supposedly 'pretty, beautiful, hot, sexy' and all that and he especially hated all the hate. He wanted me to stop, but I was against the idea. I loved it, I saw comments of how I made peoples days better and how I saved them. I realized that's all I really wanted in life to make people happy. I then started YouTube and my followers kept going up. When we were out, I'd get recognized and he didn't really like that. I never understood why. We started fighting a lot about the most stupid things. Most of the time it was always the same topic, my fame." I took a deep breath preparing myself for the hard part. I could feel the tears that were about to starts rolling down my cheek.

" We started drifting apart, I went on a U.S. tour for like a month. He didn't like the idea and he didn't want to come with. We rarely talked and it was killing me. We were best friends how could it not. I came back a day earlier than the date I was gonna arrive. I had a key to his apartment so I drove over there. I had my ear buds in, the music was quite loud and once I got in his apartment I realized a pair of girl shoes by his door and they weren't mine so I tried not jumping to conclusion. 'Maybe they were his sisters?' I thought. Once I walked in further his apartment I saw clothes all over the floor. Girl and guy clothes and the clothes was obviously not mine. Most of the apartment was trashed like not dirty just things on the floor and pillows on the floor. I slowly took my ear buds out and thats when I heard all the moaning and wall banging. Cameron you don't know how awful that felt. The big smile I had on my face, of how happy I was that I was going to see him once again, turned into a face of so many mixed emotions. Fear, confusion, anger, and mostly sadness. I followed the trail of clothes and noise out of pure stupidity. I really don't know what I expect, I guess I hoped that it wasn't him in there or that it wasn't what it looked like. I was dead wrong. I walked in on them my once boyfriend and the one girl I despised the most. They didn't notice I walked in until I yelled at them." tears were streaming down my face already and I didn't notice at all. Cameron just looked shocked and he kept wiping the tears away. "I was heart broken and numb, I kept hoping and whishing it was just some terrible dream. I didn't cry at that moment I didn't want to show them how badly hurt I was. Once I yelled a few unpleasant things at them, I grabbed her clothes threw them out the window took my clothes and flipped some stuff over. I might have gotten carried away, but I was broken, thats was only way I could get some kind of pay back and not break down in tears infront of them. Oh I also threw a lot of his clothes in the toilet." I said chuckling a little of how crazy I was.

"It was hard to get through that, I'm not gonna lie. I always told myself, even as a little girl, 'if they keep fucking up, they aren't worth you or your time' so I stayed far away from him and blocked him on anything I could. I lost my boyfriend, my best friend, the only person that really made me happy, I lost him about a year ago." I said sobbing by this point. My make up couldn't be saved anymore.

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A/n: wow thats horrible😥 hope you guys liked update soon!