Until Tomorrow

Day 2 of 21

Day 2 of 21- The sounds of roosters woke me up and I was appalled and unhappy. I noticed a lot today, first being that my grandfather only takes care of my grandmother when he has to and really only fends for us because that is what he signed up, for despite the jokes he makes every once in a while. I got barked at along with my brother for many stupid things such as using the wrong plate and falling asleep in the car. I was nosey enough to check my mother's emails looking to see if my school emailed her about me getting accepted into a special club but instead I had an hour full of my mom's deepest and darkest secrets including how she was raped by a man my grandmother talks highly of, the "accident" that I hear about all the time was actually a suicide attempt, my older brother is in no way related to me and he at age 34 has no idea, my mom and dad got back together and I had no clue, my brother  saw my father on his death bed and I did not, my mother had 2 abortions, and was a hoe for a little while, I found out that she doesn't trust herself and has some insecurities despite the confidence she has acquired and I now understand why she's so strict with me and I no longer have a problem with it. My biggest fear in life isn't death anymore and that's all I can say for today. Until Tomorrow