I love to appreciate people
I love to make them happy
I love to make them that they are special
I love to try as hard as i can to showing them that i love them
But sometimes
It just gone so far
Too far sometimes till i lost
Im trying to look my own way to home
But i cant
I need someone to help me
I need someone to look for me
When somebody try to help me
Im mad
Im upsets
And im frustrated
Why him?
Why not you?
Sometimes i want somebody do the same as i do
To me
And only for me
When somebody come and trying as best as he can to make me special
Im mad
And i already broken
Why should somebody else?
Why not you?
I dont like to hurts people
But i know i already hurts them
Im not going to explain, because i know that just more hurting
I hate my self
For hoping with the real man
Real Young man with the cold dark side
Brave
Ambitious
Confident
And smart
But i know he is not the man that i need
He is not the man that stand by me,make me be my self infront of him
He is not the one that look for me if im lost
He is not the one that going to make me special
He is not
And never.
He will not ready for me
Ofcourse he's not
Because he never planned to
Thats My fault,
I let it grow and rise
I let it shine and blinding
I let it bigger and strengthened
That is my dream and dream is not real
A hopes and hopes are not always be granted
And a feelings , and feeling is not only unpleasant
But you are real,granted and unpleasant
unfortunately, you are dangerous.
