Insecure •a Michael Clifford fan fiction•

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Sophie's POV

The annoying sound of my morning alarm fills my ears once again.

I slowly open my eyes and look up to the ceiling.

What a good day it will be. Note the sarcasm.

I sigh and slowly get out of my bed, going into my own bathroom.

I go to the sink to wash my face and my teeth, and than go to the toilet to do my business .

When I finished, I went back into my room to get my phone and some clean underwear.

I put my phone down the sink and quickly press play, in the music app. My favorite playlist came on.

I quickly hopped into the shower, and the first song that my phone played was 'Hold me down' by Halsey.

I really loved her, she sang my thoughts out.

I washed myself, and than 'R U Mine?' By Arctic Monkeys came on.

Another band that I really liked. I also liked some Nirvana, and some Ed Sheeran.

This was the music that helped me trough the years of high school.

I guess I can tell you some things about myself.

Hi, my name is Sophie Collins. I'm 17 years old. I have brown hair and green eyes. I'm not the skinniest girl, but I'm not fat. I live with my parents in Boston. Some of you might think, it's really cool here, but it's not. Or at least I think so. In high school everyone makes bad comments about me. It's really hard surviving it.

I don't have any friends with who I could share my thoughts, feelings.

I'm not the girl who goes to everyone and begins to talk to them. I was always shy around people and never had some true friends.

At school I'm always on my own. Mostly I listen to music in the breaks, and I eat my lunch in the girls bathroom.

I was doing self harm for a while, and I still do it sometimes, but just when I feel down.

I never had a boyfriend. But I often dream about that, one day I'll meet someone who appreciates me for who I am.

My parents support me. They always are here for me, when I need them.

I don't have any siblings, although I have always wished for an older brother or sister.

I wash my hair, and then get out of the shower.

I quickly wrap a towel around my body, grab my underwear and phone and walk out of my bathroom.

I dry my body and my hair so I could get ready.

I put on my clean underwear and walk to my closet to pick an outfit for today.

I decide to put on some jeans along with a red flannel of mine. I decide to go with my black converse.

I don't put on any makeup, because probably I will cry or have a breakdown or something like that.

I brush my hair, quickly grab my phone, headphones and my schoolbag and walk out of my room.

I go down the stairs to meet my parents sitting at the table as usual drinking their coffee.

" Morning " I say and sit down.

" Good morning darling " My mom says. " Do you want some eggs? "

" No, thanks" I decline politely.

" Aren't you hungry? You haven't eaten last night" My dad says .

" No thanks " I say again.

I look at the clock on the wall, and see that I have to go.

" I have to go, or I will be late" I say and stand up. " I love you guys " I say and kiss both of their cheeks.

My mom and dad don't know about the bullying, and I won't tell them. They would probably phone the school or make me go into some other school.

I'm not eating much, since the kids in the school tell me I'm fat.

I walk out of the door, and quickly plug my headphones in to listen to some music.

I walk down the street to the bus stop.

I wait for the bus. I listen to some Halsey songs, until the bus comes.

I see the bus coming, and I quickly get on.

School isn't far from where I live so I could practically walk to school, but then I would have to get up earlier, and I'm not a morning person.

The bus arrives at my school, and I quickly get out. As I walk I keep my head down so nobody could see me, or notice me.

I walk down the hallway, quickly trying to get to my locker, but then I trip over someones foot. Great. A good way to start a Monday.

I fall on my face, and hear everybody laughing at me.

I stay there on the floor, trying to catch my breath.

" Don't want to get up?" I hear Ben laughing. He is one of the boys who make fun of me and bully me.

I try to get up but somebody kicks me in the side so I collapse on the floor again.

" No, she just loves the floor" Charlotte answers, she's probably the one who kicked me in the ribs.

She is one of my female bullies who is a cheerleader.

She hates everyone who isn't as skinny as her. But mostly she hates me.

" Oh let her kiss the floor " Nick says. Another one of my male bullies. Nick and Ben are in the football team. They hate me too, just like Charlotte.

" Look, she can't get up, she is too fat !" Kirsty says. She is another one of my female bullies. She is a cheerleader just like Charlotte.

I really hate them. I didn't do anything to them. I didn't even know them, but one day one of them made a rude comment about me, and then the bullying began.

I lied to you, about the bad comments. There aren't just comments, they often kick me, slap me, throw me on the floor or lock me somewhere so I couldn't go to class, so I would get into trouble.

" Come on let's go ! " Ben says. "Let her sleep on the floor"

With that they walk away, and I start to get up quickly throwing them a glance and standing up, going to my locker to get my books.

I was already late for class so I had to hurry.

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-Kate xx