Insecure •a Michael Clifford fan fiction•

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Sophie's POV

I woke up again at the sound of my alarm clock.

I groaned loudly, and pulled myself out of my bed, realizing that I'm still in my chlotes from yesterday.

I walked to my dresser, and pulled out a fresh pair of underwear and a new pair of black skinny jeans and my Arctic Monkeys T shirt and a big black sweatshirt and walked into my bathroom.

When I walked into the bathroom I looked in my mirror just to see that on both  sides of my cheeks there are two big red bruises.

" Shit " I say.

Than I turned around, and turned the water on in the shower and quickly stripped out of my chlotes pulling Michaels T shirt off and walking into the shower.

I let the hot water calm my nerves. All the worries washed away with the water, and I calmed down.

It's really hard  thinking going down to have breakfast with my parents after last night.

I can't face them. Not after what happened last night, I know I should go, and eat breakfast with them, so I don't make the situation  any worse, but honestly I'm afraid of them.  I don't care about being late in school, but right now I can't go down.

Than I got an idea. I could climb out of my window. My window is on the second floor, but it's not high.

I quickly grabbed my underwear and chlotes and put it on along with my shoes. I walked into the bathroom, and put on some makeup on my bruises.

I threw my hair in a messy bun, grabbed my things, my phone and my headphones and checked if my door was locked.

Than I opened my window, and looked down.

Okay, it was a bit high. But I can do this.

Lucky my room is above our garage, so there's a roof where I can climb on.

I quietly turned around and put my feet out of the window.

Luckily I reached the roof of the garage  with my feet and than I put my other feet out of the window and than I jumped on the garage.

That made a loud sound, and I mentally face palmed myself.

How can I be this clumsy ?

Than I took a deep breath and jumped down of the garage.

As I jumped I hit my fucking leg.

Than I heard noises from the front door, and I started running to the bus stop.

While I'm running my leg is fucking killing me, it's fucking annoying.

As I reach the bus, I calm down and take my headphones out, and I put  Smell like teen spirit by Nirvana on.

I just shake my head to the beat of the song, and than I realize that all the people on the bus are looking at me.

I stop shaking my head like an idiot and continue listening to music.

Not long and the bus reached the school and I mentally groaned at the fact that it's another day of school.

The bus stopped and I got up from my seat and walked to the door of the bus.

As it opened I was the first who got out of the bus, and I started walking to the gates of school, still listening to music, hoping that none of my fucking annoying bullies decides to pick on me, because I really wasn't in the mood today.

As I reached the doors of hell, I walked in and I already saw that Nick, Ben, Kirsty and Charlotte were talking at Charlottes locker and I just looked at the floor continuing to listen to music.

But today luck wasn't on my side today and they noticed me and started walking my way.

I quickly pulled the headphones out of my ears and put my phone and my headphones away in my bag.

You know I don't want to buy another phone, because they broke my phone once and my parents were really pissed at the fact that they had to buy me a phone. 

They reached me and I just continued staring at the ground.

" Hello sweetheart " I heard Ben greet me.

I hated the fact that he called me that.

I just remained silent, not moving a single bone.

After a few moments of silence, I didn't respond I could feel a hand slapping me.

" He said hello, you bitch!! " I heard Kirsty shout at me and I muttered a small 'hi' and started holding my cheek, because it hurt like a bitch.

After a few moments of silence I could feel someone kicking me in the stomach and another person kicking me in the ribs, and someone throwing me on the ground. Shit.

I fucking hate this world, sometimes I just wonder, why is someone so ugly and worthless like me  is even existing.

They eventually left after I didn't stood up from the floor.

After a few more minutes of laying on the floor I heard the bell ring, and I knew that I'll come late to my first class again.

I honestly hate this school so much that I can't wait to get out of this hellhole that is called school.

I want to travel the world, meet new people and be free and young.

But I can't do that. My parents would be so angry with me if I'd ever told them about traveling the world.

I haven't told anybody about it, and I'm never going to tell anybody.

After a little I realize that I was still sitting on the floor and thinking.

I quickly got up and rushed to the bathroom.

As I went in I saw the ugly girl that I always see when I look into mirrors. 

There were now three big red marks visible on both sides of my cheeks. Two from my parents and one from my bullies. What a perfect life have I got ?

I quickly fixed my hair and my chlotes and than walked out of the bathroom.

Shit, class already started like ten minutes ago, and I'm still here thinking about how-

" Sophie ?" I heard someones voice.

I turned around and saw a surprised Ashton looking at me.

" Oh, hi " I say and look down to my feet, finding the floor the most interesting thing right now.

" What the heck happened to your face ?" He asked.

I'm fucked.

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