There's No Happy Ending[One Shot Stories Compilation]

Somebody's POV

DISCLAIMER: 

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

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'MAGBEBREAK DIN KAYO!'

These are the words I always say every single time I hear, watch or even read something about them. I mean, they shouldn't be together. They just can't be happy. How dare them to be happy and in love while I am here.. alone? Broken. 

This is just so unfair!

Can't they be more discreet? Pwede naman nilang hindi ipakita kung gaano sila kasaya eh. Wag naman nilang harap-harapang ipakita na sobrang saya nila sa isa't isa! Pwede naman yun diba? Be professional!

Alam ko marami sa inyo.. naiinis sakin. Natutuwa sa nangyayari sakin. I bet you even prayed for this to happen. Alam ko ding pinagtatawanan nyo ko. You even called it as my Karma.

I know it was partly my fault. Aminado ako dun, may kasalanan din ako sa nangyari. Kasalanan ko din kung bakit nangyayari lahat ng 'to. Ako din mismo ang naglagay sa sarili ko sa sitwasyong 'to. Pero hindi ko naman alam na ganito ang mangyayari. Kung nalaman ko lang edi sana, edi sana hindi ako nakinig sa sinasabi ng iba.

Mag-iisang taon na rin mula nung batuhin ako ng kung anu-anong salita. Mga espekulasyong di naman alam ng maramo kung may basehan o totoo.

Sabi nila Malandi ako, papansin. Mukhang-pera. Humahabol sa taong wala namang gusto na sakin. Marami pa.

They even go below the belt. Pati physical features ko sinali nila.

Pero wala akong pakialam sa lahat ng yan. Kahit ano namang gawin ko, may masasabi at masasabi sila tungkol sakin. May mapupuna at mapupuna sila.

Hindi naman ako nasasaktan sa ginagawa at sinasabi nila sakin. It's the mistake I made that keeps on hurting me. 

Habang nakikita ko sila.. o kaya kahit mag-isa lang ako.. contemplating things I've done for the past years. 

The decisions I made. 

The chances I had but still I chose to let it go.

Hindi ko naman ginusto lahat ng nangyari.

I know he truly deserved what he has now. Recognition. Social status. Love life. Happiness and Contentment.

Which makes me wonder.. ganyan din kaya sya kasaya kung ako yung kasama nya ngayon? Kung um-oo kaya ako sa kanya, mas masaya sya? Masaya kami? What if I took the chance to be with him?

Kung may pinagsisisihan man ako sa nangyari, iyun yung pinakawalan ko sya at hinayaan ko syang mapunta sa iba. Na ako dapat yun eh. Yung kasama nya. Yung nakakapagpasaya sa kanya. I used to be her. 

Maybe most of you will going to say that I deserve this. Yes you can say that. But you don't know a single thing about what really happened.

I was too young back then. I have my goals and I dream so big. At gusto ko matupad ko yun lahat. My mom even convinced me to focus on my career first then everything will follow. Kaya sinunod ko yung sinabi nila. I closed my door for him. I focused on my career, on my dreams. Nagtagumpay naman ako. Kaya lang may kulang eh.

At alam ko kung sino yung kulang. SYA. 

I will never be completely happy because he's not with me. I tried to just shrugged it but it keeps on coming back. I talked with some of my colleagues. Sabi nila ganun naman daw talaga. 

WE REALLY CAN NEVER HAVE IT ALL. 

We just have to chose. And I chose my career, my dreams over him.

Pero bakit ganun? Sila.. they have their career. They are as successful as me. Maybe even more. Pero bakit sila sobrang saya? May career na, may love life pa?

Why do I have this feeling that I don't deserve happiness? That I will never be as happy as they are. 

Karma ba talaga 'to? Parusa? Consequences ng lahat ng maling nagawa ko?

If only I could turn back time, I promise to make everything right. I promise that I will choose him over anything. No matter what.

Kung may natutunan man ako sa nangyari at sa nangyayari ngayon.. it's you have to take a risk for you to be completely happy. Step out of your comfort zone. Don't box yourself. Big opportunities rarely knocks so make sure that you will never let it slip. And.. chances.. sometimes, chances only limited into one. Because the truth is, chances often come once.

I know, I have to move on and accept the things the way it is. Let go and turn around.

I wish I have the strength to do so. I wish I really have. Because until now, it's still him.

At palagi lang akong makukulong sa ala-ala naming dalawa. Sa pait ng pagsisisi.