My head is spinning. I close my eyes for a while, but the spinning just won't stop. I, Camila Cabello, Sixteen years old, fell in love with my best friend. And if the whole thing is not bad enough, my best friend is a girl, so that makes me gay right? As the bell rings, I run out of the classroom, heading for the toilet. I lock myself in a cabin and decide stay there for a while. What am I gonna be doing? My parents don't support same-gender relationships, Lauren has a boyfriend and I am not even sure if I can accept myself at this point. I can only think of one thing, and that is avoiding Lauren. That way I can forget about her and I can focus on dating guys, like it's supposed to be. I take out my phone, unlocking it, and I instantly get confronted by all the texts Lauren sent me.
L: Camz, please don't be mad. I mean, I get that you're mad but I dont't want to fight.
L: Answer me plz
L: Can we talk after class?
L: Why are you ignoring me? Please talk to me after class, i'll be in the library.
I can't take this right now. I don't want to talk to her. I just want to stay away from her, so I don't get confused with my sexual orientation. I don't know if it is the right decision, but I decide blocking Lauren. As soon as I press 'Block Contact' I feel bad. Lauren and I have been best friends since we were four years old, and I am throwing everything away right now. But I also know that loving her would hurt a lot more, so I feel that this is the right thing to do. I also decide blocking her on all social media. Just in case, so I don't see any pictures of Lauren coming by as I am checking my instagram. I need to forget her, as soon as possible. I put my phone back in my pocket. As I am opening the door of the cabin, I hear two people coming in. ''Oh Zach,'' I hear a girl panting. Shit, it's Lauren and Zach, making out in the girls bathroom.
I decide to keep on sitting in my cabin, as I still hear the sounds of Lauren and Zach making out. It is really gross. At some point, I can't take it any longer and just walk out of the cabin, heading straight at the door. I see Lauren and Zach having a major make-out session on the sink. And then the jealousy hits me in the face again. I decide to just leave the bathroom, trying to forget what I just saw. When I arrive at the lunch table, Normani and Dinah are already arguing about what movie they'll be watching tonight. Ally is sitting two tables next to us, talking to Troy. They look so cute together.
"Hi,'' I say, as I am sitting down next to Dinah. "O hey Mila, Dinah and I were just discussing about what movie we'll be watching tonight. We just can't make up our minds. So, what do you think: Grease or High School Musical 2?'' Normani asks me. ''Grease,'' I say, taking a bite of my sandwich right after. Normani and Dinah look at eachother, and start nodding. ''So, where's Lauren?'' Dinah asks me. ''You guys always show up at lunch together.'' ''Probably with this Zach guy'''Normani answers. ''They are dating for a few weeks now.'' What? Normani and Dinah knew about Zach? So Lauren told them. But she didn't tell me, and I still don't get the reason why. ''Jep,'' I say. ''I caught them making out in the girls bathroom, and I didn't feel like interrupting them.'' Normani and Dinah start laughing really loud. I got to admit, I would've laughed too, if I wasn't so goddamn Jealous.
Lunch is finally over, and I pull out my timetable to see what class I have next. Math. As I am walking past the girls bathroom, I see Lauren walking out. Her hair is messy and she's fixing her clothes. I guess stuff got really serious in there. As I am walking past her, she suddenly grabs my hand and pulls me into the bathroom again. ''Lauren wtf'' I say harshly. She doesn't care. She locks the both of us in a cabin and starts kissing me, all of the sudden. My head is spinning and I don't know what to do. This might be my only chance of kissing Lauren, but I also want to forget about her. Lauren starts deepening the kiss and I am so confused about this situation. I feel myself kissing back, even though I don't want to. What the fuck is happening here. I feel Lauren's hand under my shirt. Oh my god, I can't take this. I push Lauren away from me, looking her straight in the eye. ''Lauren, what are we doing? You're dating Zach.'' I say. ''I know, but I just can't stand it that you are avoiding me.'' Lauren says. Okay, now I am confused so bad. Basically, Lauren is hitting on me, Dating Zach, not telling me about Zach and then she decides to kiss me because she can't stand me avoiding her. What is going on here? I unlock the cabin door, and run away. Not just away from her, but away from school. I keep on running. I don't know where I am going.
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