Obstacles (Camren)

Chapter 7

Camila's POV

As much as I was hoping that one cigarette and a kiss would solve everything; I know it doesn't. I am still sitting against the wall, next to Lauren, who is smoking her fourth cigarette by now. 

''Camz?'' Lauren speaks up, looking at me expectantly, smoke coming out of her mouth. I look up at her, grabbing another cigarette at the same time. My nerves are killing me; I really need one to survive the upcoming conversation. My hands are mindlessly looking for the lighter while I try to answer Lauren. ''Y-yes?'' I stutter, finally getting a hold of the small, purple lighter. I light up the cigarette, immediately feeling more relaxed and at ease. As I inhale and exhale the smoke, Lauren speaks up again. ''I think it's important to talk about what happened, but more importantly, we should find a way to get out of here.'' 

She's right, and I know it. We need to get out of here; this scary looking, unfamiliar neighborhood. 

''I know.'' I say, inhaling a puff of smoke at the same time. ''I know all of that Lauren, but we don't have a phone or a map. I've never been in this neighborhood either. So, unless you have a plan, I have no idea what to do.'' Lauren sighs. She doesn't know either. ''Camz, I am scared.'' She admits. ''And I am sorry about the whole Zach thing. You deserved to know.'' 

Lauren looks me in the eye. I know she genuinely feels bad about the situation, I can see that. But it still doesn't explain why she kissed me. 

''Why did you kiss me?'' I ask her, inhaling another puff of smoke. Lauren does the same. She then looks down at her feet, not answering my question. ''Lauren, I-'' Lauren then puts her hand on my mouth, making sure I can't say another word. She moves to sit in front of me and says: ''I've always had feelings for you Camz, from the day we met. It was really confusing for me at first, because, since I was little, my parents would always tell me that in the future, I would marry a handsome man. I tried to hold on to that, you know. I laid in my bed, praying for just one guy to prove me wrong. But this guy never came. Every time I had a new boyfriend, I just wanted to hide my feelings for you. It was stupid, because with each boyfriend I had, my feelings for you just got stronger. I just couldn't take it anymore. I am sorry.'' She says, a tear rolling down her cheek. I am completely baffled. Lauren Jauregui, reciprocates my feelings. Am I dreaming?

I get woken up from my thoughts by feeling soft lips on mine. I am startled, and I can't move. She just took me by surprise. Just as I want to start moving my lips, Lauren pulls away. More and more tears are falling from her cheeks.

''I am sorry, I don't know what I was thinking. You probably don't even feel the same way about me. You are probably straight and I just fucked everything up.'' She says between sobs. -No you didn't! - I want to say, but the words are stuck in my throat. -No, I love you too, don't worry!- I want to tell her, but my mouth doesn't assist. I just look at her, not saying anything. 

Lauren then gets up and wipes her tears away. ''Goodbye Camila,'' She says, turning her back towards me and running away. I just can't get myself to move and keep on sitting against the wall. Then everything hits me, all at once. 

I screwed up. Bigtime.