District Shade

How do you do?

Its still me here.
I get a little cheeky and nervous yet so arrogant from the time I left the house.
It felt like I wanted to show that I was a girl, or maybe they wouldn't know me.
I'd feel like I was rude not greeting back from their gentleness.
I really wish I could speak, why couldn't I?,
How didn't I? How did this happen.
But really I'm so irritated I was born or maybe drugged here as a mute.
I don't really know if I had amnesia because I didn't know anything when I first came here, I didn't even know I was a mute!.
But this isn't why im talking now.
I accepted it, yet I really wanted to show them.
I don't know why, maybe so I could be more social with people.
Maybe to even tease them about who I was the whole time.

Right now off the boardwalk, quiet walking the road,
Max was right, it did feel empty here. But I see three or four people at least.
I went to the other one who was alone, the three were talking about, hmm, something.
I couldn't really tell but those had nice clothing, the lantern's light whitewashed its color.
So everything my lantern's light touches it most definitely seems white-ish.
The light rather looks bluish-white but it does make all the colors seem white.
I seem to notice that Max was a little darker, I mean his hair was darker so was his eyes.
I too had this weird appearance but nobody seems to notice so far.
But much more different, I'm more lighter than anyone.
Odd, so a whilst I head to the individual boy I just waved.
I wasn't testing anyone, I'm just Trying to be social even with my kind of Communication.
He waved back, oh how relieved I am I thought he would think I'm a random weird person.
He talked to me much than I wanted to. I think he's younger than me, I can't really tell, I'm so confused at my age. I think he agrees for he told me everything confuses him. I guess I'm not the only one. For awhile I thought he just paused.
But then I realized he was just trying to wait for anything I'd say, I didn't say anything, I felt rude though, like I was denying his gentle friendly gestures. But I gave him some gestures which I myself can't understand. My hand zipped my lips as a demonstration that I was a mute. I do believe he doesn't quite understand. He thought I was trying to shut him up. Finding for anything to hang my lantern on, I immediately spotted the boy's empty free hand. So I gave the lantern to the guy and did my little sign language which I think made a little more sense than the previous one.
"So, I think you were trying to say that you were a mute"
Said he in a low voice.
I nodded. I actually think the dark short journeys of my life were the easiest.
They could tell it was me already.
"Ah that made much more sense, the name's Jack Bonlow, glad to meet you"
He shook hands with me as greetings. What a nice fellow. Im sure he understands I can't greet back.
"Ah its good that there's someone to finally talk to or maybe less than that, its good to finally have someone to interact to.
I don't have a lantern with me.
The government said they ran out so,
Pity"
We took a small walk not so far from home.
It was a nice walk, but unfortunately we had limits.
He says its late so he gotta go home. How did he know it was late?
"I'll see you again someday,maybe, my friend might be waiting or worried sick"
He ran and made a last wave of goodbye.
Its funny, its like I feel that everyone's house mate are just friends to them, I don't see families though.
Rarely to people in relationships.
As he went on, it began to get darker.
I turned round and felt that my hands felt a little empty as if I were missing something.
I- wait, I looked back at me and Jack was unseeable. My lantern! I ran to that direction.
If only I could shout.
I ran to every lantern just to find my own.
I look like an imbecile touching everyone's lantern just running to every light she sees.
But then I could see the last light finally, with my breathing so fast, I was confident that I was right that I doubt that isn't my lantern. So I just walked sparing the energy left in me. At last I reached him from behind he was twindling his keys from his right hand while the other holds MY lantern. he realizes after.
"Oh my I forgot this wasn't mine"
He looked behind and there I was panting quietly and standing on the spot.
"My god, you frightened me! Pity, you must have ran all your way just to find me"
I just stood there and breathed.
"Here you deserve it, I'm so sorry!"
I nodded a little, and took the lantern from his hand.
"Oh don't worry bout' me I have a friend which has a lantern as well"
..yeah I was totally gonna ask, at least try to.
But I don't know how to use sign languages.
I waved another goodbye and heard him close the door quietly behind me, I looked left and right then left and right again. And then that made me realize.
I was lost, I never saw this part of town before.
And so, I stood there never moving and trying to decide which to go. I felt tired, my feet were shaking and the night was feeling cold.
Im at the part of street Jack lives on.
I encountered a pole, and there I rested myself by sitting down. I was cold.
And alone.
I saw someone from the sidewalk holding his/her lantern heading from the way I think I came from.
He was heading to Jack's. Until he saw a little light.
From me came that little light. I did notice my lantern was running low of fire as the night was cold. He changed direction and went into mine.
"Miss, what are you doing? Its cold outside."
I trembled still, I can't utter words.
"Where perhaps do you live?, are you new?"
His words were calm and kind.
I can't even shake my head. My heart raced its limit
I closed my eyes, didn't realize I fainted.