Wishes, Dreams and Love

Chapter 3

JULIA

I was taken aback when suddenly there's a girl standing beside our table while she's gaping at me.

It's me. Motherfucker...

I've been wondering where my body has been and now it's in front of me. Napansin kong ganun pa rin ang suot ko simula kagabi. I look like shit. She didn't even bother to change my clothes. That reminds me, I may had a little fun last night. I wonder how she took that. Poor Bianca.

I forgot her name back in the morning, but I can totally chant her full name now. I've been hearing her name all day long. Sawang-sawa na umikot ang mga mata ko sa tuwing tinatawag akong Bianca.

I looked at her and she has this questioning look on her face. I know that face. I've been there. Mukhang late nga lang niyang matanggap ang nangyayari sa amin ngayon. I mean, who in the right mind would, right? Baliw na lang ang maniwalang nagkapalit kami ng kaluluwa and I guess we really are crazy. This motherfucker shit we're in is crazy!

Maaga akong nagising kanina and I've had enough time internalize everything. As in everything. Including why Bianca was crying last night. I would call her a woman, but I guess I would call her a girl instead. Poor girl, she have it rough. I can understand why she was crying and drowning her stomach with orange juice last night.

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There's continuous pounding on my head. Motherfucker! I've had a rough night and I want to sleep peacefully.

Tuloy-tuloy pa rin ang pagpukpok sa ulo ko kahit nagising na ako. No wonder my head's hurting, may kanina pang katok ng katok sa kwarto ko. I lazily got up with half opened eyes. Motherfucker, what's with the sunlight anyway?

Naiinis na binuksan ko ang pinto when I saw a woman, probably not older than me.

"Who the fuck are you?" I exclaimed. Oh that's weird. Why do I sound sweet?

Shock was written all over the woman's face. She quickly recovered, but fidgety while talking.

"Ma'am Bianca naman, mamaya ka na mag joke. Alas nueve na ng umaga, inaantay ka na nila sa baba. Ready na ang pagkain."

Nagtataka ko siyang tinignan at sunod kong nilibot ng tingin ang buong kwarto. Definitely not mine. Which makes me remember, I didn't sleep at my place last night. This must be one of the guy's room I hooked up with. I gotta say, Whoever he is, he's got a feminine side with him and must be a fancy guy to have a maid.

"Alright, alright. I'll go. Chill ka lang ate, I'll just take a shower. Where is it anyway?"

Katulad kong nagtataka kanina, siya rin ay mukhang nagtataka pero tinuro niya rin kung nasaan yung bathroom.

I went inside to take a bath and while I was lathering up, I noticed my MNM tattoo initials on my left hip are gone. I rubbed that part even more to see if it was just covered by makeup, but it won't turn up. It reddened instead and I panicked. A tattoo is a tattoo for a reason. It's supposed to be permanent, but it's gone. I shrieked at the thought of it gone.

It can't be gone. It's like saying, kahit akala mong gaano pa kapermanente ang isang bagay sa buhay mo ay pwede rin itong mawala ng walang bakas. Nico and I may have broken up, but he can't be gone forever from my life too!

Biglang pumasok yung babae kanina at natatarantang tinanong ako kung anong nangyayari sa akin, "Bakit Ma'am Bianca, anong nangyayari?"

"Motherfucker, my tattoo's gone! May kinalaman ka dito?!"