BTS:One Shots/Imagines

{Rapmonster} Holding Onto Hope - (a)

That day of the year has come,where she blows the candle light off her cake,wishing for the same.But all that ever changes is her age . Everything is just the way it is.The sun shines and sets,the stars in the night sky fade,the world seems no different.Sighing,she blows another one,seventeeth one,wishing for a better leap of joy in her life,like she always had.She blows hard till all the 17 candle remain unlit.She opens her eye and smiles slightly.Knowing deep down,that ,that was another wasted wish,that changes nothing.Holding on to hope was her only chance.So she did,to this day ,she did.Her parents clap and cheer ,so rare to seem them this way,she smiles,and cuts the cake.Everyone leaves after having a bite,going back to their normal duties,leaving her alone with the cake.She sighs and slumps down on her chair.

Why do I even bother? I'm growing older , but nothing good comes my way.She thinks and starts to sob silently ,like she always did.

And now she's 20.Her life still miserable.Her father a hypocritical,arrogant man who thinks he knows his daughter well,but never did.Never tried to,never would.Its always his way or none at all.Her mother trying to make it better,but there's not much she could do.She's had her chances and none of them were a success, but nonetheless,she tried.
Siblings were too young to understand.

She sighs and wipes her face.Crying seemed ridiculous to her now,since there was nothing else she could do,she let it all out.She hated herself for not being strong enough,emotionally.Heart piercing words always brought a lump down a throat , that she tried to ignore,which made it harder and painful.
She gets a little make up on and heads out with her books.She isn't sure what she is doing with life.But she moves on,holding on to that hope.
One day,it'll all go the way I want,I'll be happy she keeps telling herself.

She heads out,and plugs the earphone inn,letting the music consume her painful thoughts and fears.
Few minutes of a refreshing walk,and next thing she knows she was held firmly by a boy,perhaps older to her by 2 years,gripping her by the waist to prevent her from falling head down.Her books lay scattered across the footpath and her papers,wet due to rain.

He helps her up."Are you alright?" he asks ,helping her pick up her belongings.She nods and moves forward to get her stuff.He looks at her concerned and smiles."I'm sorry" she mumbles confidently,sorta.He holds in a chuckle and rubs his neck.His expression changes when he notices her eyes."Hey, you alright?" He asks again,truly concerned this time.She smiles and replies "Yes, I'm alright". "No,no,your eyes...I mean...have you been crying or something?" He asks,stepping closer to look at her.She backs away surprised and walks away."I'm good,nothing new" she yells ,over the rainstorm that had picked up.
He stands still,watching her walk away.His first thought was to leave the matter and head his way to class,but something about her made him run towards her."Wait...wait wait wait" he says stopping her."Look,I'm really grateful for your help , really I am,but thats all I can do for you now,alright? I need to go---" "Woah woah woah,you could do something for me.Lets just walk together , yeah?"

Psycho.What does he need? Using his handsome looks and loyal act to lure girls into his trap now isn't he? Well,not this girl,she thought.

"No" she replied wanly and heads her way to bio lab , letting her pace quicken with the rain.
It was pouring down heavily and both were getting drenched.He laughs and walks along with her."At least tell me your name?"
"NO!"she yells and walks away.
He stops,startled and watches her run towards the biolab.

That was rude.But it wasn't my fault.My life is already a mess as it is.A boy would just make it even worse.No,I was not rude,I was saving him from me.Yes,thats it.She thinks and continues her experiment.

After 3 hours of her work , she leaves last.Locking the lab and heading towards the staff room to hand over the keys.It was still stormy , but the rain seemed to settle down.The smell of musty and muddy air was stronger,she loved it.
Rain was her mood,her way of letting loose.
She stops and leans to look outside for awhile.It was quiet .So quiet.It hurt.
"Don't ,not again,no.Don't cry,no" she mumbles to herself angrily and wipes away her hot tears."Dammit" she curses and walks away.

He watches,spies more like,his head against the door,eyes closed,legs crossed and hands in his pocket.He sighs,"I need to know." He whispers to himself."I need to know her more" he voices out his feelings.He opens his eyes,making up his mind and goes to meet her.

After handing over the keys , she walks back to her dorm.Her little dorm,where she lived by herself ,which was fine.She liked being lonely,because that's how she was mostly after settling in a new place.She never experienced the pleasure of having company anymore.Her friends miles apart,unknowing of her miserable and well kept pain.She smiles as she video chats to them,hearing their amazing stories and cracking up at their ridiculously hilarious ones.She mostly listens and that itself makes her happy.

She lies down on her bed,still wet from the rain,too lost in thought to change her damp clothes.
The doorbell rings and she scrambles to her feet."Who is it?" She asks."Well,even if I told you my name , you still wouldn't know me,so why not look through the peep hole smarty?".

That voice.Oh no.He followed me?! Panick settles in and she quickly opens her phone to call someone . Realizing that there was not one person she could contact,she groans in frustration."Go away you...you stalker!" He laughs "I walked a lot,and I know you won't open the door,smart move.But I was determined to find you and voila" he says knocking twice .
She tries to hide a smile . "What do you need me for? I'm not the sort of girl you think I am." He laughs again,"Is that so? Then,keep me enlightened." He says and sits down outside her doorstep.'Tell me what kind of girl you are".

She drops her jaw.What is it with this guy? So creepy..but interesting.NO ! NO.
"Go awaaay!" She yells. "I cant,I don't know why,but I cant seem to leave you alone." She gasps at his words and slumps down near the door.Pulling her knees in closer,shivering slightly,she cries."Please,you do not understand,your putting yourself in trouble,I'm sorry but you can't be my friend.I don't want any."
He smiles slightly,"I'm not planning on becoming your friend you know?" he says lying his head back against the door.She looks up startled,"WHAT?!"
He laughs and tousled his hair,"You make me laugh,I Like you,you're interesting." He confesses.
"I cried and swore and was completely rude.How is that interesting?" she retorts.
"You are extremely attractive when you cry.But you know..." he stops and lets a minute pass.
"What?"She asks , trying to hiding the curiosity in her voice.
"I'm sure you're even more attractive when you laugh.And I want to make sure you do.You know,just to prove my point of course.Your laugh can be a killer one.And now I just need to hear it."
"You assume a lot."
"Not trying to be a creep here but,I might have a tiny crush on you even though I've met you only few hours back,but damn, you've really got something I like."
"Like I said you assume a lot."
"You like ignoring good things people say about you."
"No one does."
"And you assume so."
"NO!!"
"Yes..'

Silence.This boy made her think.For once her mind was thinking about something other than her dark life.Could .. could he be the hope I was desperately holding onto?

"My name is Kim Namjun" he continues,and looks over his shoulder,hoping to hear her reply.

"I..."
He cocks his eyebrow upwards,waiting for her to continue,
"Y/N.."
He smiles,"Beautiful..." He says to himself and leans against the door.
She wipes her tears and giggles.Surprised with herself she covers it up with her long and damp sleeve before he could hear it.
"Told you your laugh would be deadly"
"You didn't die,did you?" She retorts sarcastically.
"Oh I'm dead from within" he replies with humor.
She laughs again,"Aack...stop it hurts" he continued and she laughs more.And finally he laughs along with her.

"Say?.."
"Hmmm..?"
"Let me in will you? I would reaaaaallly like a hot cup of coffee right now because man it's freezing out here."

Making up her mind,she places her hand on the door knob,"Here we go.." She mumbles and opens the door to see a smiling Kim Namjoon.