𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐌

n i n e t e e n

-hoseok pov-

I looked out into the wide blue yonder as I waited for Taehyung to come and pick me up from the park I was at. After seeing Yoongi at Seokjin's house I didn't know what to say, I couldn't believe he had quit his job and dreams for me and only me, I knew my reactions weren't what he had been expecting but I was on the verge of tears because of all the emotions that were rushing through my mind.

I swung my legs back and forth and looked down at my hands, it had only been an hour since I had called Taehyung and asked him to pick me up, he was never this late not to mention the fact that I had spent a night at Jungkook's house without telling him, his attitude seemed odd. At first I didn't want to leave Jin's house, I wanted to stay there and converse with Yoongi about anything, but what I had said and my actions towards him said something different, the look on Yoongi's face when I had asked him if moving back to Korea for me was too sudden looked as if it could make flowers wilt, after that I didn't know what to say so I just left and never looked back.

I played around with the hem of my shirt as I began to regret my actions, when I saw Yoongi all I wanted to do was throw my hands on to him and embrace him in a hug but I couldn't because I was too stunned and content to do so and now here I am, at a park by myself with no one next to me because I didn't do anything I wanted to do, instead, I questioned his actions.

I lifted my head up as I heard the scrunching of grass nearing me.

"You called."
Taehyung mumbled looking down at me.

"Yes, to come pick me up."
I replied, standing up.

"Yeah, I know, but Hoseok, I have been waiting for a moment like this to talk to you."
Taehyung uttered sitting down on the bench, I slowly sat down beside him and waited for him to say something.

"I love you Hoseok-"

"Taehyung, we have already been through all this and I told you-"

"I know, but let me finish."
He interrupted glancing at me then changing his stare into the open.

"I love you, but, you don't love me, and I finally understand that now, I've realised how ignorant and selfish I have been, I cannot force you to love me and I realise that even if you had decided to give in to me, I still wouldn't have found happiness or really been happy, because you wouldn't be happy. I wish I understood all this the moment you left to America but I was blinded by jealousy and vexation to understand, so I'm telling you now that I can finally let you go, I love you more than words can say and you must understand that but unfortunately, you don't feel the same way so I've decided to let it all go and start fresh. That's what I wanted to say Hoseok."
Taehyung finished with a genuine smile, I stared into his eyes not knowing what to say.

"W-what?"
I replied making Taehyung chuckle.

"I know this may be a lot for you to take in at the moment, but I needed to get this out. You love Yoongi don't you? If he makes you happy then that's what I want for you, I don't want you to be miserable for the rest of your life, so, what are you waiting for? Go and tell him how you really feel."
Taehyung stated standing up and pushing his hands into the pockets of his jeans.

"Y-Yoongi?"
I managed to mumble as my lips twitched up into a smile.

"Yes, did something bad happen?"
Taehyung questioned looking down at me.

"Y-yes, but I know how to fix it."
I replied standing up.

"Good."
He said, smiling.

"Taehyung, thank you so much for understanding, I didn't know what I was going to do and now that you have said this, it just gives me ease, thank you."
I mumbled pulling him into a hug, he smelt of freshly baked cookies, which was weird because Taehyung never smelt like that, I relaxed as I felt him put his hands around me.

"Thank you so much."
I whispered making him laugh.

"Don't thank me, it was Jungkook who really opened up my eyes."
He muttered.

"Jungkook?"
I questioned as Taehyung pulled away from the hug.

"Yes, why?"

"Tae, I really do think he's in love with you still, please give him a chance."
He looked down at his shoes as the blood rushed to his cheeks.

"Yeah, maybe I will."

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It feels like it has been years since I have updated this story,
I'm sorry for the late update ♡

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