My Best friend is my mate and he rejected me

Ophelia

My breathing slowed down, but my heart thumped against my ribs, threatening to leap out of my chest. I was beginning to lose count of the amount of times, Jake has been making me feel this way. Jake was still growling above me, a clear show of his dominance over me. My wolf was elated at the sight of her mate, but me on the other hand, I wasn't so happy with being embarrassed. I hated admitting to myself that Jake had so much power over me. Hell, he was the only one that could save me.

I glared up at him. Dam him. My flip floppy emotions were driving me crazy. One moment, all I want to do is to be in his arms, then the next I'm on a rampage, with a violent beast threatening to show itself.

Jake seemed to notice that I was back to normal, and so his growling ceased ever so slightly. I choose that moment to use my telekinesis to throw him off of me. Jake landed hard on a nearby tree as I urged my aching body to sit up. My eyes moved away from a groaning Jake, and unto the others. They seemed a bit freaked out but more so worried. I find myself forgetting they were even there to begin with.

"Well that was something." Sam chirped, with a smile. I gave him an uneasy smile back and stood up.

"I'm sorry guys. Maybe I should have gone to that anger management class." I explained to the group jokingly. My pack smiled probably thinking about the same memory I had running through my head. That memory seemed like it was years ago, but it was actually about a year ago. The group had witness a tantrum I had thrown while watching a movie, I can't remember the name off, failed to show the reason behind killing off one of the coolest characters in the movie.

Annabelle had jokingly requested that I take up some classes to learn how to control my anger.

It finally sunk in that my life has been really shitty lately. I was on the verge of becoming an empty vessel and I was dying, and the only way to avoid that was to mate with my HIV ridden mate, and not only that but I had the closest people to my heart betray the hell out of me, and an ex pack that hates me, along with a devious slut that I unfortunately didn't kill when I had the chance.

I sighed tiringly. Would it be so bad to die? I mean I'll see my parents again. The only people I know that have never hurt me purposely. I mean everyone here would probably get over it. My pack is strong, they'll be okay.

Fuck, now I'm turning suicidal. I blinked fiercely and shook my head. I turned away from the group, and without a word I started in the direction I believed led to the bond breaker.

As I walked I tried my best to stay away from thoughts that would anger, or make me depressed, and surprisingly a bit suicidal. I tried to focus on coming up with a plan for after I get rid of this bond I held with that monster.

A sigh escaped me as I decided that I have been way off my rocker for the last couple days. I'm going crazy slowly but surely and I need to get rid of a very dangerous threat with my head actually on my body. This is what I'm supposed to be focusing on, not trivial things such as my stupid mate and his feelings or mine.

My mission is to kill, and once that's over.......

My body sagged slightly, knowing that I was making the right decision. I turned slightly to look at my family. Adriana and Annabelle were both walking next to their mates, while the twins talked quietly, and finally Jason, he was alert, and scanning the area. It's been such a crazy couple of days, I honestly wish that we had never accepted that job to help out Jake's pack. I wish there wasn't a threat to any pack out there. I wish that I could be laughing at home with my family, and then eventually die peacefully in my king sized bed, snuggled to my pink and black pillow, in my sleep.