My Best friend is my mate and he rejected me

Unanswered Questions Part 1

 I was furious. As I came out of the cave and went outside I was completely soaked, and to my surprise, Out of my special place was also raining. The sky was really dark and the sun had completely set. There were no stars or the nice shining moon, all there was, was darkness.

The rain continued to pour harder but I paid no attention to it. I felt crushed but I didn’t cry about it. My heart was also aching inside. It was obvious that it wasn’t my demon inside of me that was causing this pain. It was that asshole Jake. How could he be so stupid to ask lorry, out of all the people in the world, lorry is the one he asked to marry him?

My wolf was also growling in anger but she was also complaining about leaving him there looking so broken and torn. She kept telling me to go back to him and make him feel better or just listen to hear what he has to say. I just completely blocked her out.

What she was saying was making me even angrier. I didn’t want to hear his side or comfort him. I’m the one he should comfort; I’m the one he should have chosen to be with. I was even more pissed now. The sound of thunder echoed through the trees of the woods once more. Only this time it was louder. I didn’t even flinch at the sound. The weather was showing exactly what I felt and I even thought that this might be my new power. I would of really believed it if it wasn’t for the fact that I didn’t feel my body giving off energy other than my anger.

I continued to stomp my way through the woods, and as I walked the wind was howling in my ears. The trees were swishing in the wind, and for some strange reason I wanted to see destruction. I wanted to see stuff burn and trees on top of each other scattered in the forest. What I was feeling scared me, but what scared me most is the fact that I wanted to be the cause of all that destruction.

The beat of my heart was drumming in my ears and the familiar tingling feeling going through my body had me worried. My heart was now screaming in pain, it was like I was being rejected all over again. My heart started to pound in my chest. It was going faster and faster each second. It felt like it was going to jump out of my chest. I didn’t feel anything other than the pain of rejection and anger.

“ahhh!” I screamed. I felt that familiar stabbing pain my heart. I felt something stirring inside me and it wasn’t my wolf. I couldn’t sense my wolf anymore. I dropped to my knees as the pain got more intense. I bit my lip trying to hold in the scream that I wanted to let out.

The wind was whistling in my ears. It was like I was hearing soft whispers. Little voices singing and laughing. It made me feel safe and protected even though my heart was throbbing in pain.

“Let it out destiny.”

My eyes darted around the woods to see who had just spoken. It came out in a soft whisper. It seemed to be drifting in the wind. It was such a motherly voice. I felt like I was being held close to someone but I looked down to see that I was still on my knees clutching my chest.

I was now in a complete daze now. The motherly voice repeated the same words over and over again. I was so content yet my anger was still there. I felt at peace yet I felt like there was a battle going on inside me.

My breath came out ragged and harsh. It’s happening again. I was shifting into the monster again. Only this time it hurt more than ever. A sobbed broke out from me. I was sad and I didn’t know why. I started to sob uncontrollably. My mind was fuzzy and my eyes stung from all the tears that were coming out. What the fuck?

My emotions were all over the place. I then started to laugh like a maniac. I was kneeled down on the ground in pain and yet I was laughing. What the hell is happening to me? I felt like these emotions were not my own. I didn’t understand what was happening to me. My laughter then turned dark. My thoughts started to get corrupted. My mind was no longer fuzzy but filled with evil thoughts.