Funny how depression and self hatred can hit you so suddenly and out of the blue. You could be laughing and suddenly you remember one of your mistakes and you suddenly feel nothing but shame and self hatred.
You don't deserve to be happy. A voice screams in your head and you believe it.
You could be talking to someone and say one wrong word and suddenly you remember all the things you ever said wrong. You hurt this and that by your words how could! It is better if you stay silent. It is better if you never talk again. the voice screams again and again.
It is maddening the constant fear of how and when anxiety and depression are going to hit. You fear you would be simply walking in the street and start having a panic attack or talking to someone and suddenly break down crying because of something you did years ago. It might seem silly and might seem unreal but that is exactly how it works.
It is a constant fear of yourself. A constant fear of everyone and everything around you. It is a constant fear of failure. It is a constant fear of life and the future and it doesn't go away.
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Fallen angels
PoesíaThis is a book of poems and short stories that i have written during a rough period in my life. I wrote it to help me and others go through depression and such. I hope for who will read those poems to be better and happier
