A Collection of Short Stories

Feelings

a/n: I was in a bad mood today, and I needed to vent. I haven't been on here in a while, I know, but oh well. Read if you, I guess. The writing's choppy, and weird. But oh well. 

I'm upset.

I'm upset because I don't have a job. It's upsetting because when my fucking charger breaks because someone else pushed me to the breaking point I can't replace it.

It's stupid I know, first world problems, but I think in a way the charger was the final straw.

He sat there all night and made himself seem like the king of the land over the rest of us just because he knew the ending to one fucking episode.

And when I tried to defend myself I was told to "calm down" and "jeez it's not a big deal!"

BUT OBVIOUSLY IT WAS A BIG DEAL IF YOU HAD TO PICK A FIGHT WITH ME BECAUSE OF IT.

And it wasn't just today. He sits there and pretends all the time that I don't understand what hard work is because I'm not in PC, I don't get to say that the first 8 hour day of lifeguarding was hard because I'm in PC and "don't know what real work is".

Fuck you.

We're related and supposed to be there for each other, not put the other down.

You've called me retarded. Which is by far the lowest thing you have ever done to me. Only because I mixed up my words, my mental capacity was now lower than your and you just HAD to point that out to me with a laugh.

It wasn't funny, and I left you, angry. And later you tried to brush it off as though nothing was wrong, but it was.

Now I'm here typing this wishing you would just grow up.

I want you to grow up because I'm tired of the disappointed head shakes directed towards me when things don't go your way.

I want you to grow up so I can be civil with you and not leave feeling upset.

I want you to grow up so we can easily move on and understand where the other was coming from.

But no, you're 13 and it's going to be a while.

So I'll have to wait.