If you love me.

Chapter 3- no one can know ..

Lauren's p.o.v
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Camila closed the door as she left leaving me behind with my thoughts . What was I going to do ? I just confessed my love for the girl I've liked since the X factor . My fellow bandmate. Camila was everything I've looked for in a girl , sweet , caring, dorky , smart, beautiful .

Camila was perfect in everyway possible . She's also my best friend . My other half , and id die if I ever lost her . I want to be with her I do , but if people were to find out it could ruin everything . Besides , mother would never approve , and I could lose fans , and I'm just afraid . Afraid of what people will think of me . I was already bullied enough in high school and I was not ready to get bullied while I was trying to pursue my dreams . Camila on the other hand doesn't care what others think of her .

That's one thing I love about the smaller girl . She wasn't afraid to be herself , she wasn't afraid to let her guard down , and open her heart for others . I had to let her know , that if we were to be anything it would have to be a secret .

I woke up the next day well rested and ready for whatever today had in store for us . I saw Camila sitting next to Dinah laughing about something they saw on tv . Camila's laugh was adorable , it was something I wouldn't mind listening to for days . And her smile is my favorite thing .

Camila looked at me with the brightest smile , making me return a big grin . She quickly got up and skipped to me .

" so are we a thing ?" She asked . My heart sped up and my eyes grew wide as I realized that we were close enough for the other girls to hear us . So I pulled her father away. " keep your voice down I don't want anyone to know " I whispered looking around to make sure no one heard me .

Camila looked down at her feet her smile faltering . " oh, I'm sorry " she whispered .

I then realized how harsh I sounded and soften my tone a little bit . " it's cool camz , look I want to be with you so I guess we are dating , but it has to stay between us okay ? I know you might want an explanation of why but I just can't explain it right now okay ? Can we do that .. Can we keep us a secret ?" I asked with a hint of desperation in my voice , because I hoped she would agree because I surely wanted to be with this girl .

She smiled a bright smile once again , this time connected her mocha eyes with mine . " anything for you babe " she whispered in my ear sending chills down my spine .

" what are you guys talking about ?" Ally asked amused with our quietness . My breath caught in my throat as if I got caught doing something I wasn't suppose to . " nothing . " I chuckled . " nothing at all "

" whatever " ally said rolling her eyes . " if you don't want us in on your juicy gossip you could've just said so " she smiled before turning back to the tv .

I took a sip of my coffee and got lost in my thoughts . Considering whether this was a bad idea or not . So many terrible things could happen because of this , yet so many great things could happen as well . But I was willing to risk it for Camila I loved her and that I knew for sure .

" Lauren what about you?" Normani said snapping me out of my thoughts .

" huh?" I asked confused of what the girls were talking a bout while I was lost in my mind . " who are you going to stay with at the hotel ?" Normani asked annoyed that she had to repeat the question . " oh um" I said not knowing who I would want to share a hotel room with . Obviously Camila but I was afraid they'd think something of it if I said it as quickly as I wanted to .

" she can share with me " Camila said saving me from my awkwardness. " is that cool with you Lauren ?" She asked me with a plastered smile . " of course " I said with a faint laugh .

" okay cool it's settled then, me, ally, and normani will share a room , and you and Camila will share one ok no more fighting about this" Dinah said settling the argument .

We all nodded in agreement. Then exited the bus entering the hotel . We all separated going into our hotel rooms . As soon as I entered my room I threw my luggage to the side and flopped down on the bed . I raised my head and realized there was only one bed in the room . I gulped , and took a deep breath as I came to the realization that tonight I will be sleeping with Camila cabello . Literally .

" one bed huh ?" Camila said sitting next to me . " excellent " she continued giving me a wink making me laugh at her goofy self . " hey now , we literally just confirmed our relationship today so no big ideas " I laughed pulling her closer to me .

She gave me a small smile before it faltered . " are you sure about this Lauren ? Do you really want to be with me ?" She asked unsure about my feelings for her. " of course I do " I assured her . " there's no one I'd rather be with than you " I continued moving a strand of hair out of her face making her slightly blush .

" I'm glad you said that , because I would've most likely cried if you were to say no " she said smiling . " I'm glad I did to because I definitely wouldn't wanna see my girl crying " I said making her blush even more .

I couldn't help but to smile over how cute she looked . Being next to her made me feel all giddy inside . I only hoped she felt the same . Her being her was all I wanted . She was perfect just the way she was . From her head to her toes .

" don't ever stop doing that " I said kissing her on the cheek .

" doing what ?" She asked with a shy smile .

" being you " I said kissing her forehead " being perfectly you"