Beat

Don't Choke

Some people waste their lives on smoking
Others stay out all night drinking
Me?
I'll waste my time
Just sit and rhyme
And i'll overdose on thinking,
Contemplating
And hating
Everything im
Resuscitating
Because my lungs they have no fliter
So i hold my breath just waiting

"Don't choke" they told me
As they'd throw me to the ground
And hold me
Both hands around my neck
And they'd scold me
If i move to boldly
All the black spots floating in spaces
All the blurs across their faces
Still holding on,
The air is seeping out
they've convinced me
i can live without it

And i believed them
Like the fool i was
I believed them
They say it gets better
But it never ever does.

And what is oxygen?-
I'll ask again
And Not in the chemical sense
They say to fill your lungs with something good,
It'll make you feel the way you should
How should i feel- do tell?
If you claim to know me so well,
Then you'd know
I may cry
I may lie
But i dont need your kind of 'high'
So goodbye

And take your criticisms with you
Because you know ive got enough issues
And youre right i might even miss you
But i'll try my hardest not to cry
Or to die
Or to let my life pass me by
You were my world,
you were my stars
But now, i only see you
In my scars.

Because i believed you
Like the stupid fool i was
I believed you
You said it gets better
But it never ever ever ever

Wait-
I can feel myself resuscitate
Can feel my lungs expanding
My mind demanding
The fears to dissipate
And they do
It takes a while,
But i'll do the time
Even though the fault was never mine
I was a flower in her prime
And you were winters harsh decline

Please-
This may be my last request
And i know im awful at best
Like a bounding chorus at rest
Here's one last note
And i don't care if you go and gloat
I'd throw out all that i ever wrote
If you'd just take your hands off my throat