Beat

Defining 'Fine'

Sometimes i think back
And contemplate what i lack
And i realize
All those times
Those filthy crimes
Each verse and rhyme
Are of you
You taint every inch of memory
You are burning within me
Like a scar across my arm
It doesn't hurt but shows the harm
A snake can do with all its charm

But yes im fine
And you are fine
Its just that now
We walk on either side
Of an invisible line
And that is fine

But do recall
Back when you'd say anything at all
The times we'd text or when you'd call
You promised to paint the stars upon my back someday
But said " not now, maybe later ok?"
And when later never came
I never imagined i'd think of it this way
But yes all those messages and images
still surfing through waves
Of data and files and miles and miles of
graves
The holes in which our love was buried
And with no epitaph or sympathies
Not even an apology
I could write great symphonies
Publish my own anthology
With dreams and hopes we whispered once
Under the covers
While all my worries hovered
And my mind was screaming
"This is not your lover"

But now you're fine
And im fine
And it takes some time
To define
what it means
To be fine
But i'll let you know
What i find

These words
clog my head like a sink
I wish i drank
because i need a drink
Right about now
Or at least someone
Telling me how
Im supposed to move on
Its been
a year
and every now and then
I still find a tear
on my pillow
And you've found someone new
Smarter and taller too
With such bright eyes
And a thin size
Hell i'd forget me too

And maybe i have

Whats the point anymore
I could write a million sonnets
Sing a million songs
Give a hundred apologies
Saying that once again i was wrong
But nothing
I can do
Will give me you

So i am fine
And you are fine
But fine is not fine
When you are painting the stars
Across her shoulder blades
And not mine
We may both be fine
But i think its time
You learn to stay on your side
Of this line