Avengers One Shots

The Edge of Tonight || Stucky

There he sat on the edge of the roof, dangling his legs off the edge. His eyes were red and had puffy bags underneath them. He was having another episode and be just couldn't handle it. All those people he hurt, all the people he killed. His own thoughts ate at him, screaming at him. He hated what he had become. He was a murderer, a monster. He remembers everything. He remembered being happy. He remembered that one time him and Steve rode the cyclone causing Steve to puke afterwards.

His happy memories were out numbered by the scary negative ones. He wishes that he could go back in time and just kill himself before Hydra could get to him. He wishes Steve or Natasha would've killed him when they had the chance.

He stared out at the city. People rushed around in the dark and cars lit up the lively streets. He was pretty far up on the Avenger's tower but he could just barley make out the little details.

He thought everyone was asleep. He snuck out of his and Steve's shared bed and bolted up to the roof. He has woken up from another nightmare. In the nightmare all the people he had killed were surrounding him, screaming at him for what he had done. He tried to fight back but they over powered him easily and beat him. The worst part of it was all the avengers were there. They each took their turn at beating him and they were all laughing at him.

He had become friends with the avengers so it hurt like hell to see that all come crumbling down. The last person to beat him was the one who really broke him. His long time friend and lover punched and kicked him everywhere while spitting insults and telling him how he lied to him all this time.

"God how could I be so stupid! No one will ever love me" He said to himself. He stood up and looked over at the city and rushing cars he would most likely crash into.

He stood there for god knows how long just really thinking about it. He really wanted this. He wanted it all to end, he thought he deserved it anyway. He felt like a fool. He could just imagine the smirks on everyone's face when they find out he's dead. He felt that deep down no one really liked him. He had changed so much that even Steve probably hated him now too.

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"Where the hell is he?" Steve asked himself he woke up in the middle of the night to an empty bed. He normally woke up at random times at night just so he could make sure Bucky was okay. He stood up and accessed the security cameras. He saw Tony and Bruce in the lab where Tony kept distracting Bruce with little kisses, it made Steve gag a little. He searched each floor but just saw the rest of team either sleeping or training. He checked the perimeter around the tower and didn't see anything. He almost didn't check the roof because he didn't expect to see the most important person in his life about to jump.

He bolted up, grabbing a jacket and ran for the stairs.

"Jarvis alert Sam and tell him to suit up, it's an emergency" Steve yelled out as he ran up the stairwell. "Tell him to circle the roof"

"Yes sir" Jarvis answered. He ran up the stairs because he knew the elevator would just take longer. His blood ran cold just imagining Bucky up there. What the hell was happening?! Too many thoughts ran through his head, they were deafening. He couldn't hear the others shouting his name as he shot past their floor stairway doors, all he could think about was getting to Bucky.

He finally got up and burst through the door, grabbing Bucky's attention. He could just barely see Bucky's face but the puffy eyes and fresh tears were prominent in the lighting.

"Buck...please get down" Steve said breathlessly. Bucky didn't move from the edge but looked back down at the city.

"You don't have to pretend anymore" He said quietly. Steve's face contorted with confusion.

"What?" he asked. He slowly walked towards him but stopped when Bucky started getting closer to the edge. The brunette shook his head and let out a soft laugh.

"I'm so stupid," He exclaimed loudly. "How could I let myself believe that I was finally fitting in?"

"Bucky what are you talking about?"

"I know you all hate me! How could any of you stand me? You know what I've done, who I've hurt. I've changed so much that you can't love me anymore. I've tried so hard to be the way I was but it just doesn't work. I don't really know who I am anymore and it hurts, Steve! All I do all day is work out and train. I have nightmares every few weeks and when you leave on missions I just can't find a reason to get up. I'm pathetic" Bucky ranted. Tears threatened to spill as he stared at the man he loved. Steve stood there in shock with tears brimming his eyes as well.

"Buck...I will never stop loving you. Remember our promise? Till the end of the line, right? You changed but so have I. You're still the same man I fell in love with decades ago. You're caring but somewhat stoic. You like it when I mess with your hair and you like to slap my ass whenever I walk by you. You aren't a morning person unlike me, but after some coffee and kisses you're ready to go. Bucky, everyone on the team loves you. Especially Nastaha and Sam."

By this time Steve was a few feet away from Bucky. His eyes were still leaking and his mind was jumbled. His thoughts were battling between believing Steve or sticking to his thoughts. His mind was telling Steve was lying but the look on Steve's face was genuine.

"No...no, you're just saying that so I won't jump. I can't do this" Bucky breathed out as he stared out at the city. He felt like he was being suffocated by his own thoughts. It was just too much happening and none of it made any sense.

"Bucky just..please come down. We can work this out" Steve pleaded with him. Bucky walked up to Steve and pulled him into a slow kiss. Their lips moved against each other and their tongues swiped across each other's lips. Steve wrapped his arms loosely around Bucky and let out a breathe of relief when they pulled apart. Bucky on the other hand was still crying. Steve reached up and tried to wipe away the tears but Bucky moved out of his reach. He just need to do that one last time.

"I'm sorry" Bucky said quietly before running towards the edge.

"Buck no!" Steve screamed as he tried to grab him but he wasn't fast enough. He jumped over the edge and Steve collapsed to the floor. Tears blurred his vision and his blood ran cold. Did he really lose Bucky again? He looked over the edge and couldn't see him anywhere.

To be continued.............