Exploring// Todoroki + Izuku

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Its been over two years since I've seen Todoroki.

It's taken over a year and a half to forget about him.

Two years ago was the last day we both looked at each other and touched each other.

Two years ago, his hands all over my body were I could think about.

His touch, so soft. His smile, so welcoming, his voice was so soothing.

The way he knew he was all of my good spots were, the way he had with words.

Now all he is too me is a bittersweet Tragedy.

"Izuku, you haven't touched your coffee," says Uraraka snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Huh...oh sorry I guess I kinda zoned out," I said picking up the hot cup and taking a sip,my mind still wondering off to the memories I once had.

"Yea, no wonder...were you thinking of him again?" she asks making me spit out my coffee and groan in misery.

"No, it's not like that," I said quietly adjusting myself in the stool seat. We sat in the middle of the small cafe, by the window. The cafe was a normal one on the corner of Kenteo St. The same cafe we used to go to.

"Really? 'Cause when you think of him you always start to pull the skin on your finger,"
I stop whatever I was doing and looked down to see my right middle finger starting to turn red. I guess I've done it many times that the pain just kinda went numb. Whenever I got nervous my hands kinda triggered themselves and they basically did anything they want.

"Sorry... it's just... it's been 2 years," I said trying to hold back the tears that so deeply wanted to fall.

"Izuku, you need to stop trying so hard. He's not coming back ...not after what happened that day."

That day. The day we said goodbye. Our last kiss, our last moments of looking at each other and just, crying. Crying so hard until our eyes turned red. His touch was no longer embracing, but instead cold and frightening because of what happened next. Everything was cold, dark something like in a horror movie but worse. The air was thin and our breaths were running out of time. His furious yelling was sending goosebumps under my skin as the stab wound wouldn't stop bleeding out.

"You need to stop being a hero for once, you can't save everyone,"  he whispers so softly into my hands. They felt moist as Torodoki held them closely to his crying face. Everything was so faint, after that fight, my vision went blank all of my memories came rushing towards me. The best and happiest with Torodoki.

"What?" I ask trying to find my voice. My throat was burning like the dessert and my body ached. During the fight I'm pretty sure I broke both of my legs, most of the pain came from down there, not to mention my head felt as if it were just slammed into the concrete ground.

"I love you... Please don't leave," I said each word hurting more than the last. I knew it was Torodoki because he was the half red, half white blob crying into his hands.

"Sorry Izuku... But I can't be around you anymore... It's not your fault, or Noami's, it's just I can't lose you again... It scares me seeing you like this," he says before letting one of his hands lose from mine.

"It's better if I weren't around to put you guys in danger...I love you too, and I promise to come back to you... It's going to be okay, don't think of this as a goodbye, think of it as a 'see ya later...' Everything's going to be okay."
His last words to me. The ones that repeat throughout my head day and night.
They're never going to leave.
I don't want them to leave.
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Hey, guys so I hope you enjoy my first chapter of Exploring :)