Exploring// Todoroki + Izuku

4

That night I went too bed with a sore throat and had to double up my Xanax. It's a type of pill I had to used when my thoughts got out of control. It's not my fault everything had turned into shit ever since my dad left and I figured out I couldn't be a hero. Then All might gave me some of his  powers, but that didn't work too well with my small body and it ended up having it's quirks. My body got weaker after having Yuri, I couldn't even walk up a flight of stairs without getting tired, light headed or having suicuidal thoughts. 

What made it even worse is that I wasn't even allowed to see my own child for two years and Torodoki left me afterwords. 

I lived in the apartment I've always had because I couldn't bring myself to leave my mom. She took care of Yuri with me and she was a great help. We added an extra bedroom to the apartment because Torodoki needed a room where'd he could study criamnals and other situations. 

My mom had a small crush on Torodoki considering how hot he was. It's gross, it's always been.

But we don't ever that room ever more considering our break up and I've only walked into it twice. I didn't want mom or me to clean out his stuff because no mattered what I've hoped that he returned to me. But now that he has, I regret my thinking.

I came home and mom already had dinner set for us. It was soup with egg on top and it was delieous. Yuri sat at the coffee table while me and mom sat at the counter. She drank coffee and I drank some left over eggnog with a little bit of romen. 

She started to rub my back in circles. 

"What's wrong sweetie?" she asks in a soft voice. I couldn't respond but instead groan in pain. The memories of Torodoki were still racing through my head. 

"You only make that sound when your seriously depressed, like when you figured out you didn't have any quirks"

I groan again but softer taking another sip of my eggnog with romen. I usually hated acholoe and the burning sensation when it poured down my throat but it's not like I could help it. I wanted to feel numb. 

"Sweetheart if you don't answer me you bet-"

"He came back...he wanted to talk to me and Yuri, he said he still...loved me" 

Mom was silent for a minute before speaking in a low manner.

"I'm so sorry honey bun, that man shouldn't be allowed to be even near you, he left you without a good explaination" 

I sat up with my nose still a little runny. My mother wipes away the tears under my eyes and sighs.

"Mom I still love him, and I always will love him...I don't want too, I mean what if he leaves again, this isn't just about me, Yuri still calls him dad I don't like that" 

Mom pouts her face and smiles.

"If you still love him, I'd say follow your heart and do what feels right...he did hurt you so hard that you wouldn't leave your bed for 3 months, all you did was cry about him" 

My heart felt heavy and I put my hands on my face sighing heavy not wanting to think about this. My anxiety pills aren't working as in fact I don't think they ever did. My bedsheet's are cold without him, my hands feel like theirs no place from them anymore. 

"Daddy is Daddy Torodoki coming to live with us?" 

I starred back at the young innocent girl who'd saved me from my troubles once. I don't want her to know what's it's like to have your heart broke from the most important man in her life.When Torodoki left, Yuri didn't cry. Because Todoroki told her that everything's going to be okay and he'll back soon.

I guess he didn't lie after all.

I mean he did come back today.

Yuri's eyes were the size of the moon whenever Torodoki was mentioned and it excited me. I patted her soft blonde hair gently and tilt my head to the side. 

"I don't know sweetie, do you want him to come back?"

Yuri starts to fiddle with her fingers and look down at her feet. 

"Of course I want him too...I miss him...but not it he's gonna hurt daddy Midyoria" 

I grinned and graced my hand beside her cheek.

"I won't let that happen again babygirl"