Winter Paws

Being Found

I gulped, trying to even my shallow breathing. I felt a cold shiver run down my spine; I shuddered and stared straight ahead into James' grey eyes that were staring back into mine. I felt engulfed by them; they were sharing arrays of emotions with me that made my heart pound hard against my chest. I felt the strong ambiances of sadness and pain coming from him. I wanted to go over and tell him everything will be okay with us but my body was immobile, I couldn't move, no words were coming out of my mouth, I was locked by James' emotions.

"I can't do this... us. It isn't about the fact that you're a rouge Lola, it really isn't." James advanced towards me slowly as he spoke, being careful as if I'd hurt him any second, as if I was a wild animal. "Lola say something..." He whispered, his eyes wavering in desperation for my answer.

I snapped out of my trance, breathing in a deep breath before sighing. I showed no emotions and looked straight into James' eyes once again, "Then why?" I spoke, surprised my voice sounded awfully normal. I wanted to feel calm and not let James know I was feeling hopeless and weak.

James eyes narrowed at me suspiciously, "because my dad's pack means so much to me, I can't be distracted Lola." He answered with honesty.

"That's pathetic!" I screamed, startling James as he took a step away from me, "That's a pathetic excuse James. You and I know very well that your father had Jane as Luna and they were perfectly fine together. She was no distraction! Then how am I a distraction? Are you embarrassed of me?" I sneered lowly at James.

"No! Lola listen to me, he died because he wasn't focused, and he didn't know that there were rogues in our territory. He was too preoccupied with his family." James punched the wall next to him; bits of the wall's paint came peeling off and fall to the ground.

"Oh really? Aren't you glad your father gave you time? He brought you up and you're acting as if it means nothing to you? I suggest you don't have any friends and work alone without any help if you don't want any fucking distractions! You never noticed me in your territory when you were with the guys! You didn't even know I was your mate then!"

"It was one mistake!"

"And you learn from those mistakes!"

"That's why I don't want you in my life!" He yelled finally. I looked up at him, feeling nothing but betrayed and hurt. He looked back at me with regret and guilt but I knew it was no use anymore. I sighed, shaking my head while bumping past him towards the stairs. I felt prickles of electricity soaring through my body. I clenched my hands into fists trying to get rid of the pleasurable feeling.

"Where are you going now?" James spoke up from behind in a quiet voice, almost as if he were vulnerable and needed support.

"Away from your life..." I whispered and silently walked down the spiral stairs. I had no idea what I was supposed to feel or do now. I was lost. Alone. I had no one to go to, no one to speak to, and no one to stay with. If only I had known my life would turn out like this, I would never have left my house 6 years ago; I would bear getting hurt by my parents, because it's nothing like getting hurt by a mate, my soul mate.

I don't wanna leave him Lola, My wolf whispered with tears in her eyes.

I know, I don't either... but that's what he wants, and he gets what he wants. I whispered back. I couldn't bring myself to cry, I felt nothing, just emptiness.

I was hoping he would come running behind us and be all like 'No! Don't leave! I love you!' My wolf sighed. I chuckled and pushed her playfully.

Such a hopeless romantic, I winked and carried on walking out the entrance and into the woods.

Where do we go Lola?