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mysteriousponyqueen asked.

James, how do you KNOW they won't understand without TELLING them? And why do you mean it doesn't matter?! It DOES matter! I don't want to see the horrible noose around your neck when it should be around the neck of your Godless parents...! If it didn't work DON'T let them catch you. I-If it didn't work, just forget everything and go far away. You can start a new life, you can use your intellect for good and you can meet someone new to love! Look: Never think you unloved, unimportant or a freak. You are important to me, loved by me and you are a unique person. Never EVER, believe you are misunderstood by everyone or unwanted. Never think like that...

I mean, I-I could try but... but what if they don't understand? What if they don't want to see me again? I mean they probably don't remember me... But I've been thinking about letting them catch l me for awhile now.
It's hard to forget everything, after I've been trying for so long. But how do I forget all the wrong I've done to the world? I mean- wouldn't it be better if I just died? Besides you I don't think anyone would really care...
I-I j-just don't know what to do.