(kakanaru) With Just One Look

Bull Shit

Author Note
So kakashi is kind of in his feelings.
"Kurama Talking"
"Naruto Talking to Kurama"
'Kakashi's conscience talking'

P.O.V Kakashi

"Sakura-chan, I was wondering if you could help me with a problem?" I said as she was walking back from her guard watch shift.
    "If that problem is what ever's happening between you and Naru, then I don't think I can help." She said plain and simple. She continued to walk towards the campsite where her sleeping bag was, not looking at Kakashi.
    "How do you know you can't help if I didn't even tell you what the problem between us is?!" I questioned, voice slightly raised. She stopped and turned around to give me a, 'you're dumb as fuck' look then continued walking.
    "If you think for the slightest second that I haven't noticed how distant Naruto has become, then you're stupid." Sakura stated in a calm, even tone before continuing to walk slightly faster. I followed after her, somewhat struggling to keep up and listen at the same time.
Suddenly she stopped in front of her tent, I nearly bumped into her back,"Naruto has been awkward, he's been detached, he hasn't talked to me about what's going on. He has this look in his eyes like he's given up on the world, I don't like it... I hate it." She solemnly said, her voice now raising slightly.
   She turned around and stared up at me. Her eyes had a dazed, steal, gleam to them,"I miss the Naruto who gave me advice when I needed it (about Sasuke). I miss the Naruto who didn't look so tired all the time. I miss the Naruto who would stay up all night with me and do girly things no one else would do with me."
Her expression hardened, if looks could kill, I would have died right there. The look she gave me sent shivers down my spine, these hit me harder than anything before,"And if you have something to do with it, which I bet you do. I would gladly step in, beat the crap out of your stubborn ass and shove some sense down your stupid throat for him," She said innocently with a dangerous edge,"but apparently you don't have anything to do with it, no matter how many times I try to get him to open up to me, he doesn't open up to me, and I find that it is your fault exactly. So no I'm not going to help you, I want you to figure this out for yourself because something you've done has upset our Naruto, my Naru-chan!" Sakura finished talking, stomping into her tent.
   I stood there for a while lost in my thoughts. Thoughts about Naruto, about him acting weird, my feelings for Naruto, Sakura's words of truth, and finally about whatever the hell I was going to do about this mess I caused. I never meant to hurt Naruto. I just meant to keep him away. Away from me, keep him pure and innocent.
    'Inocent, we all know he is way past innocence, all the things that have been done to him when he was a kid. Before he had you, Sakura, and Sasuke. You know what you're doing is out of pure selfishness, you don't want to feel like you're doing something wrong, because you don't want to feel like you have sinned. Trust me you've been way past sin since even before Naruto. Love is not a sin, love, love is power. Now you're just hurting him! Do you even care, did you even ask him how he felt?! Did you even try to tell him and get a reaction? You coward! You see the look in his eyes, the way he looks at you, like you hung the stars and moon, as if you created the entire universe. He admires you, he looks up to you and God knows what else. You play him like the drums, like he's a violin, you play with him like he's a puppet! No wonder he can't stand to look at you! Even I can't stand to look at me' I jumped at the sound of my own voice berating me.
   "I know the way he looks at me, I see it, so what. All the more reason for me not to go after him! All the more reason for me not to get his hopes up! All the more reason for me not to let him down! I can't live up to the expectations he has of me, I can't love him. I can't bring him into my world and drown him with my own selfishness. That's not how this goes, why would I even think to ask him? It's a sin, no one would ever allow it. We could both get in serious trouble. I'm not a coward if anything I'm a hero. And you have no right to criticize me! You are me, you cannot go against me, all I want is for him to be happy! He can be happy without me..."
   I started to pace back and forth "All I want is for him to be able to sleep at night, to wake up next to someone he loves and not to have to hide a relationship. Not to be afraid. And, He Is Innocent, he's the most innocent and clean amongst humans. If he can forgive and get over all those things that the villagers have done to him, he's the strongest, purest amongst us all, and you're right I love him. But that's another reason for me to keep this from him, to keep him safe." I finished with a whisper, letting out a soft sigh.
    "That's bullshit, and you know it." the voice retorted, stinging my chest. I sunk to the ground and sat there for a few minutes. Eventually I got up, walked over to my tent and crawled inside. I didn't sleep, I just stared up at the ceiling of my tent.
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Authors Note
A huge thank you to ceraunophxle because she beta'd this and she is awesome and an amazing writter anyone reading this should check her out! So yah this is over 800 word its at least a thousand. Kakashi did not really get help in this chapter but more of like a reality check. He will get his shit together soon, hopefully. And once again vote, like coment, and leave feedback or always helps!