(kakanaru) With Just One Look

Not Letting Go part 1

Kakashi P.O.V

There was mounds and globs of blood. It was all coming from one source. Naruto. My precious, beautiful Naruto. Black slowly started creeping into my vision and, I started to loose my sense of awareness. Only thinking of one thing. Kill who ever hurt Naru-chan. I blacked out everything I did from that point out was purely my body acting on its own, because my mind was still reeling over Naruto being hurt. Naruto was brought over to Sakuras protective dome shield. She opened it for me to enter and immediately started healing Naruto. Saskue had taken care of Haku and Gato, eyes feral and cold the whole time. I took my time slowly killing Zabuza. It wasn't enough.

Sakura was worried she couldn't seem to stabalize Naruto. It was like there was no fight. He didn't want to come back to us. I could see the tears well up in her eyes. She started hyperventilating, nothing she did would help him. She even started doing jujitsu he didn't know. Naruto kept just getting worst and worst.

"Naruto, I know you're in there. You have to let me heal you. You have to let me help. Please! I'm begging you!" She cried and yelled. She looked at Sasuke. He was silent, the look of death on his face.

I couldn't take it, "Naruto! You have to let her heal you! You can't die without hearing what I have to say. How I feel. Why I did what I did. How sorry and wrong I was, what an idiot I am. You can't go, and leave me here alone. A world without you isn't a world I wana live in. You make each of my days worth living, even when its raining and I'm being insufferable. You still shine bright. You're my sun, my treasure, my happiness and joy. And I REFUSE to let you go without telling you that I love you. I love you so much it makes me want to vomit. I wanna gauge out my eyes because every time I look you I get that funny feeling in my stomach and then my mind goes south and I can't, I can't, can't. I get hysterical because I think I'm gonna ruin you. My thoughts dirtier than anything the devil itself could imagine. I'd Tear you apart with my selfishness and overbearing want to protective you from everyone and thing. You drive me insane. That smile and body and Mind. You know what you're doing, you would turn me into a savge animal. All my thoughts centered around you. What would Naruto need/want, how can I make him happy, how do I change for him. You make me feel ignorant and incompetent while still managing to cause hearts to fly out my head. I Tried so hard to let you go. But you wouldn't let me. So I'm not letting go of you. If you won't come back for me, do it for your sister and btother, Sasuke and Sakura." We all sat there in silence as we watched the color slowly leave his cheeks. Sakura holding him close Sasuke right next to them. All looking combined as one. Suddenly red started to buble up from Naruto's body. Encompassing him completely. His wounds slowly but surley healing and color slowly spreading in his face. That tan edible face.

He looked up at me, "Did you mean it?" He whispered voice horse and lips cracked. "Do you love me? You don't hate me?" He looked exhusted.

"I could never hate you, not in a million years. Not even if you killed me for my eye." I smiled tears welling up in my eyes.

"Thats good" he said before passing out. I wanted to grab him hold him close, tuck his body into mine. But I didn't dare take him from Sasuke and Sakura. No, I couldn't.

They looked so content and peaceful, ready to kill me, but somehow peaceful. I didn't mind, sure Sakura was crying her eyes out and Sasuke was choking back some vomit, but we were okay. We survived.

Naruto P.O.V

It was hard to breath, even harder to speak, and someone was crushing my insides. But I heard everything. I heard them calling my name and begging me to stay with them. But I was tired, so very fucking tired. Tired of my feelings being ignored, the constant pushing from the one I loved, the easily distinguished look of digust in his eyes everytime he looked my way. It sounds silly, to let go just because someone doesn't love me. I get that's life and there are so many other fish in the sea, But everyone else  has their special someone and happy ending. Why can't I? Everyone else was at least acknowledged and let down, I'm not even worth that.

"You're worth everything and he knows that kit" Kurama was talking to me, his voice faint and weak.

"Kit you gotta hold on, you're more than this." His voice was wavering, slightly off, like he was crying.

It was his voice Kakashi's voice that came next. Loud and clear, his confession. He sounded so mad and broken, why was he complaining, he wasn't the one in pain, he wasn't the one laying on the ground bleeding out , thinking about the person who would never love him. Why was he so mad why does he sound so distraught, I don't understand I never understand what he wants from me. The mixed signals that he sends flying in a jumble towards me, killing me inside slowly. Why can he never just speak his mind truly for what he wants. Why does he always have to put me through so much, and now he tells me he loves me when I'm on the ground dying. I have to be dying for him to express that he loves me! Then it hit me, I won't accept it. I'm not gonna die like this, I can't die like this. He doesn't get to put me through emotional hell then proclaim his love to me as I lay dying. Like what the fuck, NO! I'm gonna live and put him through as much suffering as he has done to me. If he wants me, and really loves me, he's gonna work for me. He is gonna surrender his all to me, he will bow to me and worship me. I will become his everything, I'll completely monopolize his mind, body, and soul.

Because yeah, I love this man so much I can't let him get away with what he put me through. So when I woke and asked that question, and he answered how I expected. I knew he had already fell into my hands. He shouldn't have been afraid of recking me, after all I'm the demon, and this is love for what I know it to be.

Authors Note/Next chapter preview :
Okay so I know I'm definitely horrible because this hasn't been updated in so long, but that's only because(ik no excuses sorry)of like everything that's been going on in. This was already halfway finished when I said that it will be finished by a certain time the last time, but then a lot of stuff happened that I don't really want to talk about, so I'm really sorry guys and I hope you enjoy the update. The next one will be out by the end of March it will involve Naruto's plan to punish Kakashi for his behavior towards him and so on. It should be interesting.

Preview:

"I loved you the same way that I learned how to fight, scared but reckles with no padding, so my scars could tell the story of how I got hurt for you." He said so passionately with tears in his eyes. The blue in his eyes looking like a tsunami. I watched him walk away like golden sand slipping through my fingers. My throat clammed up, it felt like I was suffocating. Everything was spinning out of control, this wasn't how it was suppose to be.(qoute modified from Rudy  Francisco's quote I loved you how I learned how to ride a bike).