fluff warning lol and that's cal outfit. you'll see later 😏
Today is a hard day. It's not getting easier either. It doesn't feel like I'll every be okay ever again. I just sit on the bathroom floor and think. Thinking can be dangerous. Especially for someone like me.
"Lukey?" I know it's Calum. God, I miss him calling me that, "C-Can you please come out. I wanna take you somewhere."
I sigh to myself and pick myself up from the cold floor, opening the room to see Calum with bloodshot eyes.
He's been crying.
I pull out my phone from my back pocket and type, "What's wrong baby?"
"It's nothing. I'm fine," He's lying. I know he is. It doesn't hurt me, because I know he doesn't like the attention on him. Just like I don't.
"Baby, somethings obviously wrong. Can you maybe tell?"
He sighs and look up at me," Ashton is being a dick. He's calling me names and saying mean things."
I slide my phone in my back pocket, pulling him into a very tight hug. Never wanting him to go.
His salty tear soak into my soft, black sweater. I kiss his forehead lightly and scoop him into my arms, carrying him to our bed and set him down. I lay next to him, letting him cuddle up to me.
I take a deep breath and decided to do something that I've wanted to do for a very long time. I know that this will make him happy. I'm nervous- no, I'm beyond nervous. I don't know what he'll do and I don't know if he'll like it, I don't know if he'll even say what I want him to say.
I take a deep breath, sit him up and wipe the tears on his cheeks. He looks up at me with puppy dog eyes, making me want him more then ever. I make sure he's leaning up against the bunch of pillows as I get off of the bed and get on my knees.
His beautiful, chocolate brown eyes immediately go wide. He sits up and sits at the edge of the bed.
Again, I take a deep breath and try to say, "I-I-I l-l-l-lo-v-ve," before I can finish and it was going to be quick anyway because it hurts, Calum put his small hand on my cheek and says," It's okay, Lukey. Take your time, okay? I know it hurts and you don't have to tell me in words if it's to much," I nod and slip the velvet box out from my back pocket and pop it open. I take the ring out, holding it between my thumb and pointer finger.
His small legs push himself up so he's standing and he wipes his red eyes.
"I-I-I k-kn-now i-t-t's n-no-ot-."
"Yes."
"W-Wh-at?"
"I'll marry you, Lukey," He smiles and leans down, peaking my lips softly. I can't help to smiles into it, I've missed it so much and now nothing can take him away from me.
"C-Cal?" I ask, sliding the ring onto his slim finger, "D-Do y-y-you ac-ctually li-i-ike those clothes?"
"Humm, not really. I want to wear skirts and pretty tops, and legging. M-maybe panties?"
Since my throat hurts from talking, I pull out my phone and type, "We'll buy you some new stuff. How about that?"
I can't up but chuckle when his eyes light up and he tackles me in a hug," Yes please, Lukey!" I chuckle again and type," You miss being girly, Cally?" I can feel him nod in my should as he tighten his grip.
...
"Lukey!" He calls, "Can you help me carry the stuff?" I laugh to myself and take five out the the ten bags we have.
As we walk through the mall, we link our hands and Calum can't stop fidgeting with his black skinny jeans. So, I pull him into a bathroom and help him change into something more comfortable clothes.
"B-Better?" I ask as we walk to the car.
"Much," He giggles, "I feel so pretty!"
"You're always pretty," I type.
....
"Cally?" I type as we lay in out bed.
"Yes, Lukey?" Calum giggles and presses his face into my chest.
"Do you wanna move?"
"When?"
"Tomorrow."
"Really!" He sits up.
"Yes, really?"
"One request." Calum's soft, pink lips curve into a smirk.
"That is?"
"We get married in May."
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Aware • cth + lrh
Fanfic"I-I just miss you, a-and when you leave it hurt me more that anything," He stutters, trying to let what he feels flow out of him like a river. Like it's not controlling him, but then he's lying to himself.
