Sincerely Devoted (SasuNaru)

Your love is cold

8:06PM

I just finished eating dinner at Sasuke's place. There was still this cold silence between us. The silence was solid, it felt like there were walls between us. I could clearly tell Sasuke doesn't want to talk anymore about himself. But why? I wondered. I could trust him with my darkest secrets and the sins I've committed plenty.

But can he trust me with his?

I was fading away from reality once again, doing the dishes. Suddenly, there was a loud smash. Causing me to jump back into the real world, literally jumped. I looked down to see that a plate had slipped through my wet fingers and it shattered very closely to my legs. Sasuke came running, checking on me. "Uzumaki! Are you okay?" He finally spoke to me. "Yeah... I'm .. I'm very sorry." I squatted down to pick the broken pieces of ceramic up. "Don't." He immediately grabbed hold of my damp hands, "You'll hurt yourself." He was back to himself again, loving and tender to me. I felt the walls thinning between us. I almost wanted to tear up, but I held myself together.

Sometimes I feel like I know him.
Other times, he feels like a stranger to me.

"I'm so so sorry. I.. I have to go!" I took off running, it was so abrupt that Sasuke got caught off guard and didn't have enough time to go after me. I just kept running and running and running until finally I stopped at an unfamiliar bus station, only then a drop of tear escaped. I hate feeling so unfamiliar to someone I love so dearly.
I just want to know more about him.
But I can feel that he's pushing me away. I know he's a cold man, but he's different towards me. He can actually be so nice, loving and caring towards another human. So why is he shutting me out like how he does to the rest?

10:10PM

I was sleeping over Kiba's place since I decided not to be alone tonight as I didn't want my depressive thoughts taking over. After almost breaking down at the bus stop, I called Kiba and without hesitation he brought me over to his place. I was sitting on his bed, eating a tub of chocolate ice cream as if I got dumped. Sasuke's calls kept coming in non-stop. But I needed to take some time out from him. I silent my phone once again and continued digging into the half empty tub.

"Wow... Really tough day huh?" Kiba tried to lift the mood in the air, as it was feeling tensed and heavy. He cracked a smile, "It's okay, Naru. You know you'll always have me to be here for you." He lightly patted my head, comforting me. He didn't pry, he just sat beside me the entire night and accompanying me and my sorry ass.

8:59AM

Why does this always happen to me?! Running late for school again! My stamina was really poor and I was being left behind by the sportsman, Kiba. "C'mon! C'mon! Stop dragging ass!" Kiba held my hand and encouraged me to run faster, so fast I almost tripped over myself. We could see the school's gate! Finally!

But soon the sight of the gate was covered by a matte black car. And I knew exactly whose car it was.