I wish you lived next door | Shawn Mendes fanfiction

You make me selfish

Shawn's POV
"Goodmorning."
I open my eyes. Emma is next to me.
"Goodmorning." I smile
"You killed it last night."
"Thanks honey. I'm glad you were there."
Emma gives me a kiss on my forehead and gets her hand through my hair.

"So you have a day off and i'm flying home tonight. What do you wanna do?"
I hesistate.
I had something planned but I want it to be perfect and I don't know if I can make it perfect.
I wanted to go to venice and go sightseeing and go on a boat. But on second thought, i don't want to do something big. I just wanna be with her and make her feel how she deserves to feel.

"I was thinking we could relax today. Just the two of us spending some time together like a normal boy- and girlfiend do."

damn it. I called her my girlfriend. I don't know how she sees me.

I screwed up. Yikes.

"I love it." Emma gives me a kiss. "Let's go for a picknick."

Emma's POV
After we went for a picnick, saw some movies, cuddled in bed for a few hours, it's almost time to go.

"I should really start packing. We have to leave in an hour."
Shawn nods.

I open my suitcase and put my clothes in it.
When all of my clothes are in the suitcase I start packing the rest.
Toothbrush, toothpaste, brush, makeup, charger, earphones, deo, parfume, facewash. I think i got it all. I close my suitcase.

"Stay with me."
I turn around. Shawn is standing there with tears in his eyes.
"Shawn you know I can't."
"I don't care about the plans you have with your friends. I don't care that your mom wants you home. I don't care about whatever you have planned."

That sounds really mean. I give him a confused look.

"If that makes me selfish, then fine. I'm selfish. All I care about right now is you."
His voice gets a little higher.
"I just wanna be with you Emma."

I feel tears streaming down my face. "Shawn you need to stop. You're only making me feel sad about something that isn't gonna change. I wanna be with you too but I do care about all the things you just said so no.. It's not possible."

"Just a few more days." Shawn's voice cracks.

I don't know why we're both so sad. It's not like we've been together for 30 years. We met only a week ago. He lives in Canada and he is on tour. After a few days he'll forget me.

We're overreacting. This is nothing.

"It's my dads birthday this tuesday I have to be home."

Shawn's eyes go around the room. He's thinking about somehing.

His eyes go back to me.

"Then i'm coming with you."

"That's ridiculous. You have a show in Madrid on wednesday."

"Like I said." Shawn sounds annoyed. "All I care about is you."

I hesitate. Is this really a good plan?

I stare at him. I look him in the eyes, his beautiful eyes.

I don't wanna leave him either.

"Pack your bags. I'll get you a ticket."

Shawn starts smiling. He steps forward so he can give me a hug. "I love you." "And I love you."