The one left behind (A Kakashi fanfiction)

The verbaland mental battle

Kages pov:

Kakashi answered the door. I ran passed him and sat down on his couch. Kakashi turned around to look at me, while closing the door.

"Kage? what on earth?" he started to ask something but i cut him off . "I cant go home." Kakashi quickly came and sat beside me on the couch. "Why? what happend? Are you alright?" he asked sternly while pulling me into a hug. I pushed him away. I didn't need his sympathy for my patheticness. "Nothing happened, I just dont want to be alone." I stated to his surprise. "Thats unlike you. Normally you want to be left alone with no human contact. Are you sure nothing is wrong?" No Kakashi, everything is wrong. Im scared, I thought. I could never say something that helpless, its just not who I am. It may be the truth, but what do I care. "yes Kakashi im sure nothing is wrong." I said looking away. I could tell he knew when I was lying, so if I hid it by looking away, he wouldn't be able to tell. "Alright then, if nothing is wrong..." he said standing up, "then I would like to get some sleep..." Kakashi opened the door and pointed out of it, "good night Kage, see you tomorrow." This was a clear gesture showing me he wanted me to leave, or was it? I had a strange feeling in my gut telling me, he knew. He knew I was lying. Damn, hes good. "God Kakashi, your real nice. I thought I just told you I didn't want to be alone." "yes but if you have no reason, then there is really no reason for me to welcome you into my home at 12 o'clock in the morning, only for company." His statement aggravated me. So I decided to use fire, against fire. "yes but wasn't it you who said, those who abandon their friends are worse the scum?" "yes, but those who lie to their friends are also worse then scum." so he did know i was lying. shit. I was too angry to cry, yet too sad to be angry. So I just sat on his couch in a swarm of emotions. Kakashi closed his front door, walked over and calmly asked. "Kage, be honest. what is wrong?" "Everything!" I finally blurted out. "Kage, i know its not everything, be more specific. I cant help you when you dont tell me whats wrong." "stop fucking talking to me like im a kid! you know just as well that im not a kid. and I didnt come here for your lectures, i came for your comfort!" tears started rolling down my face, "I, came for your comfort.... but if your just going to be rude, and lecture me, i-im just going to leave." Kakashi had all the right to treat me like a kid. I was acting like a full out selfish little brat. I knew this yet I continued to sob. Kakashi pulled me into a hug. I dug my face into his chest and cried. he rested his chin on my head and stroked my long blond hair, which was surprisingly calming. I didn't want to leave, but i didn't want to let him always be right. "Kage, I know your not a kid, and I wasn't trying to lecture you. I was only trying to help." I heard this and knew if I didn't leave, he would be right again. damn my stupidity and helpfulness! I Hate these fucking emotions! I wispered, im sorry Kakashi, so he could barely make it out, then I bolted up and walked out his door.

It was dark and cold outside. I know I made a bad choice going home to sleep by myself, I would just have to deal with the horrors in my mind. Iwonder if Naruto has nightmares.

I reached my house, and as I was walking up the first couple of steps I saw Naruto knock on my door. "please tell me shes home!" I heard him say. He was in his white and blue striped pajamas. His night cap still on along with his slippers. I jumped into the tree in my yard. luckily I left my bedroom window open allowing me to jump into my house un-noticed. Iheard Naruto knock again. I ran down the stairs and right before I opened the door I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. my mascara was dripping in lines down my face from the tears. Fucking non water proof mascara. I hurriedly attempted to wipe off the dark lines running down my face, but nothing worked."fuck it." i said right before opening the door. "hi Kage sensei," he said hugging me tightly. "um.. is it, well, is it ok if i stay here for the rest of the night? please!" "sure Naruto, but why?" "well, um, cause... i had a bad dream." he said scratching the back of his head. "why were you crying?" he said pointing to my running mascara. "oh, its nothing. i um... was just washing my face." "oh. can i come in, its kinda cold." "oh, ya sorry Naruto."

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hey guys! :) hope you liked this depressing chapter. ya, so um... k. I STILL NEED MISSION IDEAS PEOPLE! like honestly, even the shower isnt helping. and the shower is normally where i get all my good ideas, ya know just standing there thinking. NOTHING NASTY! Ya filthy creatures. im hopeing to update another chapter later today, but that may not happen. please feel free to comment, id love to have a conversation with you in the comments. I also wrote this on my computer, that's why the style is different. So um ya. ok bye.