Lilia's Poems

Petrichor

Here it is raining again
& here i am thinking of you again too.

Petrichor perfuming the earth
&filling my thoughts again with the wind of your words.

If I say that I would miss you
That wouldn't be enough for you to miss me back.

I wish you would care like I wish you do
Or maybe just not let me alone in what I am going through.

Fruits, wet with those pure drops of water
Feeling like the taste of your words.

I shall not ask you if you tasted your words, but I shall ask you if you meant.

I shall not ask you if you meant your words, but I shall ask you if tasted your actions.

I shall not ask you if you tasted your actions because I tasted them for you.

I wish you would care the way I wish you would
Not understanding a thing, being in love but confused.

For sure, not confused about the reality of my feelings
But confused about what am I putting myself in.

People tell me I should drop this thing I want
And I keep saying what if that is wrong?

I learned in the hard way that actions speak louder than words
And that when we want something we do efforts not excuses.

A poor brain is making allies with a miserable heart
To face reality, alone, despite a presence..that looks like an absence.

Please don't look treat me like I shall not be found.
Please let me try to survive my dead days.

My days stopped beating the day my heartbeats became without meaning.
Still, I'm searching for one smile per day.

A smile that can fool everyone even you& me
Oh appearances are fooling that is easy to be.

Like a rainbow, full of colors and no agony.
I shall be involved in all noble feelings except in pity or idiocy.

Ink On Paper- Lilia.K
June, 2016