When You Find Love In Your Own Blood

~Chapter 8~ Beautiful Nightmares

~Mai's POV~
It's been a long day at school and an awkward one at that. My new friend cuts....A similar aspect of us both......and he's just really nice. I decide to text him as we ended off on an awkward silence.
S=Sam M=Mai
M: Uh hey I'm sorry about earlier
S: ah it's okay I mean....I get bullied alot I'm sure you didn't mean it as offensive. ....Right?
M: no I mean....I do it too.....
S: y-y-you do? Why? You seem so nice
M: I hate to see people in pain.....
S: mai?
M:?
S: tell me you won't do it
I didn't reply, scared of what he might say If I said no....I couldn't make that promise.
By this time I had gotten 'home' also know as a hostel for homeless children. I plug in my phone and sit in my room. I'm in this hostel because my parents didn't love me anymore and wanted me out. They beat me if I got in thier way and if I shown my face after I got home it was punched.it was just the brutal reality huh? They kept my older brother and younger but I was the mistake. Yup me. I put in my headphones as I fall asleep to my music.

I wake up and head to school
The normal ruitiene blah blah blah.
I get into tutor and everyone looks happy...I ask someone why they are so happy and tell me the news.
"Ha you don't know the cutter at the back killed himself last night. YOU made him do it. YOU found out his little secret when he liked you. So, he is dead" thy all burst into fits of laughter and happiness. I felted my world crash my first and only friend killed himself...because of me. I fell on the floor crying. I got up after and hour of crying and people laughing at me. When I got home and....hello my blade.several cuts later I still felted horrid. Then on big cut down and I was out...