Mistakes Like This

Maybe I Don't Know

Riannis POV

After an amazing show the girls and I returned from the stage back to our dressing room backstage.

I was sweating and picked up some makeup wipes to remove my makeup because I hate nothing more than my sticky after stage face.

Yuna and Alaia returned a little later from the stage because they always enjoy the long applause and cheering from the fans. Both were overexcited and danced in the dressing room while I stood in front of the mirror watching them a little bit tired from the show.

"Maaan we rocked the stage. Do you hear them screaming?" Alaia yelled super excited.

"Woah I love it. I live for this shit" Yuna hugged me from behind. I send her a slight smile and she looked worried at me. "What's wrong? It seems you didn't really enjoyed the show today." she asked me and loosend her arms from me.

I looked at her and looked back in the mirror with a sceptical look. I enjoyed the show today but I felt a little confused about my feelings at the moment, that's why I wasn't really in the mood for partying or something.

"What's wrong with our sunshine?" Alaia asked curious while she changed into comfortable clothes.

"I'm fine guys really. I'm just super tired. The last weeks were so stressful." I replied and tried to sound as normal as possible.

"Rianni I hope it's not because of the Tae thing. I'm over it. I talked to him and were totally fine. I'm ok." Yuna smiled at me and gave me a slight kiss on my cheek.

"I know I know I'm just really tired. I need to sleep on our flight back" I replied and packed my bags.

We all left our dressing room as Alaia who walked behind me stopped me as she gripped my hand.

"Girl you're too caring. Stop caring too much about others. Think of your feelings too." she whispered and loosened my hand. I nodded my head.

She was totally right.

The last weeks were so confusing for me just because of this Tae thing. I mean I don't really know what to feel right now. It was just a stupid kiss like everyone said but something about that kiss felt so different.

I kissed a few guys before but with Tae everything was just different and I felt so bad for the way I felt for him because he likes Yuna and she likes him even more.

She's my best friend and I would never ever steal a man from her and honestly I don't even know if I have feelings for Tae now or not because I actually always had a crush on Yoongi.

Yoongi (aka agus d ;) ) and I were friends since the day we first worked together for our debut.

He was always that calm guy who you can talk to for hours. Sometimes when I missed my home in New York and the girls were asleep I went up to Suga and talked to him till the morning.

A thing that I always liked on him is his huge passion for his work and music and that he sometimes works till late in the night. 

He always seemed to be a not very talkative person but when you get to know him better he's the complete opposite.

And after all the time we spend together I got the slight feeling he likes me too but he's not one of these guys who shows it that obviously.

I was always okay with that but sometimes I'm craving for his love because I need him.

After a two hour flight back to Seoul we took our luggage and went back to the dorm.

"I think we should practice our next dance today" Alaia said to us as I started unpacking my suitcase.